(no subject)
Stop burning bridges
and drive off of them.
So I can forget about you.
So bury me
in memory.
His smile's
your rope.
So wrap it tight,
around your throat
you know, you'd think it wouldnt end exactly like this, or at least i thought it wouldn't. but maybe i had you completly wrong. maybe everything we had was a lie, not on my part. but on yours. maybe i held on a little too tightly, but its not like you never did that either. & maybe we did fight too much. but who doesnt? and yeah, we've had our share of bad times. & i
cant say i blame you for wanting out. relationships are rough. & maybe i thought you had more of a heart then to go running to her. you'd always joke how pretty she was, & how you felt about her. sometimes, i wonder, was that even a joke? i guess i'll never know. most of the time im just happy it happened, because she, nor anyone else, can ever replace our memories, i dont understand, how you can 'love' someone, but completly drop them out of your life the next day? this part of the relationships makes me wonder whats the use in
giving away your heart, when eventually, at some point, they'll break it. is it worth it? waking up with a feeling of emptiness is not something i enjoy. hell, even being in a room with tons of people still doesnt take away my lonliness. i guess thats something you just have to deal with. its just a slap in the face, seeing you two together. & maybe theres nothing going on, but then again, maybe there is. either way it still feels like a slap in the face. but hey, whatever makes you happiest right? i just wish i could get over you, as easily as you made it seem. as if we didnt know each other & as if things were fine. i cant put up that act when i see you with another girl, & you know i never have been good at that. my emotions, those ive never been able to hide. maybe we really werent meant to be, & maybe its supposed to end like this. but, its just hard to understand how, a week before this all hapepned. we were still leaving each other 'i love you' messages, and acting like we were each others everythings. maybe i wasnt, but God knows you were. 'everything happens for a reason' is what everyones been saying to me lately. & maybe she needs you now more then i do. & maybe after you read this, youll say 'shes phsyco' or 'she loves me STILL, & i DONT want to be with her' because, hey thats what people tell me you say.