Last Updated, 115 weeks ago.
everyone else has disappeared on here. haven't even been here since started at CCSU. not sure what to say about the last few years.
getting a Ph.D. in clinical psychology is hard, but just saying thats what I'm trying to do makes me feel good. studying psychopaths, juvenile sex offenders. helping psych students with research methods, being an intern at wheeler clinic, preparing for the GREs.
started playing wow at some point in there, then stopped, then started again. on and off. I wish there was enough time for a real Oblivion save. i wish i wasn't so picky with girls and could figure out what i want.
i keep getting fucking distracted while watching mike play ps3. i want to sit here and play videogames. but i like going to the computer lab, i like learning, feeling that drain on my body because i just overworked my brain. i guess that means i should continue with school, among other things.
i'll probably leave behind everyone in a year, depending on where/if i get accepted. i'm a lot different than the last time i posted. a lot has happened, changed. gotten better, worse... whatever. my head is shaved and i like it. my body is in decent shape. i like who i am becoming.
my anxiety is getting too much to handle though. i think i need to see someone again. i don't think i can deal with managing my anxiety while trying to take on preparing for graduate school. there has to be an easier way. how does everyone else do it? fucking bullshit being tired all the time, horny all the time, stupid all the time.
i guess its a good time to stop drinking, to stop all the bullshit. i mean, after this week it will be my duty to help others. i think its times like those, that i feel like i know who i really am. this journey certainly is showing me the truth of myself.
god. i am such a dork.
getting a Ph.D. in clinical psychology is hard, but just saying thats what I'm trying to do makes me feel good. studying psychopaths, juvenile sex offenders. helping psych students with research methods, being an intern at wheeler clinic, preparing for the GREs.
started playing wow at some point in there, then stopped, then started again. on and off. I wish there was enough time for a real Oblivion save. i wish i wasn't so picky with girls and could figure out what i want.
i keep getting fucking distracted while watching mike play ps3. i want to sit here and play videogames. but i like going to the computer lab, i like learning, feeling that drain on my body because i just overworked my brain. i guess that means i should continue with school, among other things.
i'll probably leave behind everyone in a year, depending on where/if i get accepted. i'm a lot different than the last time i posted. a lot has happened, changed. gotten better, worse... whatever. my head is shaved and i like it. my body is in decent shape. i like who i am becoming.
my anxiety is getting too much to handle though. i think i need to see someone again. i don't think i can deal with managing my anxiety while trying to take on preparing for graduate school. there has to be an easier way. how does everyone else do it? fucking bullshit being tired all the time, horny all the time, stupid all the time.
i guess its a good time to stop drinking, to stop all the bullshit. i mean, after this week it will be my duty to help others. i think its times like those, that i feel like i know who i really am. this journey certainly is showing me the truth of myself.
god. i am such a dork.