Nov 05, 2012 15:48
I'm in the school cafeteria with a large cup of steeped tea (that's almost gone) and an empty lunchbox. It's been a long month and November's here already. Today I sent out an email to the University journal, The Varsity, asking if I could write for them again. I've been tired but I've never been more motivated to pursue the things I enjoy like writing, like volunteering, like music.
I've drifted from many friends and I feel most regretful about it in the quiet moments when I think about life - which occurs less and less nowadays because I've been so tired. I've met more new people and tried to speak to more people in my classes. They can't count as 'lasting friendships' because they're essentially transient in nature - just a coursemate, for now.
This week I'll be attending and volunteering at the Toronto Reel Asian International Film Festival. There's a Singaporean director debuting his documentary here and I was pretty excited about that. Anyway, I'll be attending a bunch of films (mostly alone), but I'm looking forward to that. Next week is my rest week - I've got two days off which I intend to spend shopping and seeing Disney's Wreck It Ralph.
The nonstop essays of October to December is taking its toll on me and I feel myself going under the weather. This year it's supposed to be a lot colder than other years. But then again, this year was meant to be many things that it wasn't.
My subconscious has been thinking about life as a writer or designer. As an artist, basically. And I know that it will be tough, but something about it just seems so unexplainably attractive to me. I've thought about writing about the Singaporean experience in Canada. But I'm not sure where that idea will take me.
Hmm, this has been a rather long post that rambles on based on where my mind takes me. There's a girl in a colourblock top on front of me talking to her friend. There's a table of three who are all of different ethnic backgrounds - they look like a poster picture of UofT. There are days I miss ACJC for what it was - a place that I felt comfortable in, a place I was able to act how I wanted and the place where I could enjoy my breaks with people who meant something to me at the time.
But ohwell.
uni,
future,
thoughts,
singapore,
canada