hidden away;
Though things seem to be going rough here, I must remember that God is watching me always and I have an 85% for Architecture to attest to that.
It seems to me that I have been questioning the integrity of the people whom I'm supposed to be able to call 'friends'. It saddens me each time I have doubts about them because I know that just by the fact that I have doubts, it shows how their 'act' is falling through. Yes, I understand that we are all hypocrites and that at some point in time we are all going to go back on our word. But this? This is just purely insulting.
I think a lot of things in this world is a matter of perspective and attitude. They are related to each other, no doubt, and with a good perspective on things, your attitude would, could and should possibly change. And perhaps, with good attitude comes good perspective. Though it may feel immensely lonely for me right now, I know that back home I have people who love me for the person I am and that even though I feel just like that homeless man sitting on the corner, I know that he probably has been through worse and been through things I cannot begin to fathom. I know that handing him a cup of hot coffee probably makes his day as much as my Architecture made me smile. And finally, I know that the satisfaction and enjoyment from that coffee and from my results is only temporal and by tomorrow i'll be bogged down with other concerns, other worries. So I guess what I'm saying is that: it is what I do right now that makes the difference and it is the attitude that I have and hold that will determine how things go from here.
And so, knowing that this is temporal ecstasy, that this is temporal loneliness, I can face tomorrow and tell myself that you are only as good as your last breath and if you don't do anything worthwhile with your breaths then what are you doing for the world?