Sai | Reserved | part 2fedele_tempestaMarch 1 2011, 05:28:42 UTC
Personality: Sai is a work in process. He was brought up to be a weapon, a shield that guards Konoha, the roots the village stands on. He doesn't have a name, he doesn't have a personality, he doesn't have a life of his own. However, he is learning again, everything from a scratch.
As one of the ANBU Root, he was taught consistently to suppress his own personality, his emotions, his desires and dislikes. And he did so very diligently, disposing himself of any weakness that might come to his way of acting as a tool for the Root's leader, Danzo. He is used to thinking himself as nothing, just a white canvas on which he paints what he finds necessary in each situation, emotions, thoughts, attitudes - he isn't exactly good in fabricating those, but sufficiently skilled. The tool-mentality went as far as Danzo placing a cursed seal on the tongue of every Root shinobi, so that if they'd ever speak of Root or Danzo, they'd become completely paralysed.
However, during his first mission with Team 7, he discovers that not all emotions are a hindrance and remembers his own late 'brother', with whom he shared much more than just a professional relationship. Naruto's bond with Sasuke becomes a corner stone of his revelation, allowing him to observe the sheer volume of passion that can be poured into friendship, and how that can become strength as well as it can be a weakness. Ever since he has been slowly deciphering human interaction and emotions, learning from books as well as the other younger shinobi.
It would be an overstatement to say he understands now how a social network functions, he has a theory, several subjective opinions borrowed from haphazard mentors, but no intuition. That, after all, has to be learned by experience, which he doesn't have. On one hand, he is a perfect soldier, impersonal, calm, obedient, sharp and tireless. And on the other hand he is a confused young man with no real experience of normal life. His interaction with others is mostly based on trial by error, testing, nudging, deciphering one detail at a time. However, as he might fault at experience, he is extremely observant, used to watching and waiting, and he will take a note of small nuances and changes. Given that, to learn more, he must experience, which makes him very prone to random interaction of all kind, whether it'd be that of pleasantries or bold questions.
It is hard to say what he finds personally pleasing or displeasing, as he is barely just knitting the first layer of his personality. He is capable of complex emotions such as embarrassment, guilt and even spite. However, he isn't quite certain why he is feeling what he does at the time. He is very easily subjected to influence by others, and his personality is bound to match his company. But despite his curiosity and willingness for change, some things will remain the same, such as his loyalty for Konoha and his suicide mentality towards the village and its people. He will serve and protect, whatever the cost. And he will not shy away from even the hard choices, one person's happiness means very little when regarding the health and survival of a whole village. It should also go without saying that his moral compass is, the least to say, fucked. He was raced to be an assassin, devout of all emotion and sympathy. He will not feel what is right or wrong. He might know how others prefer to think, but he just doesn't rock the same kind of equipment others do regarding morality, justice and social standards.
As one of the ANBU Root, he was taught consistently to suppress his own personality, his emotions, his desires and dislikes. And he did so very diligently, disposing himself of any weakness that might come to his way of acting as a tool for the Root's leader, Danzo. He is used to thinking himself as nothing, just a white canvas on which he paints what he finds necessary in each situation, emotions, thoughts, attitudes - he isn't exactly good in fabricating those, but sufficiently skilled. The tool-mentality went as far as Danzo placing a cursed seal on the tongue of every Root shinobi, so that if they'd ever speak of Root or Danzo, they'd become completely paralysed.
However, during his first mission with Team 7, he discovers that not all emotions are a hindrance and remembers his own late 'brother', with whom he shared much more than just a professional relationship. Naruto's bond with Sasuke becomes a corner stone of his revelation, allowing him to observe the sheer volume of passion that can be poured into friendship, and how that can become strength as well as it can be a weakness. Ever since he has been slowly deciphering human interaction and emotions, learning from books as well as the other younger shinobi.
It would be an overstatement to say he understands now how a social network functions, he has a theory, several subjective opinions borrowed from haphazard mentors, but no intuition. That, after all, has to be learned by experience, which he doesn't have. On one hand, he is a perfect soldier, impersonal, calm, obedient, sharp and tireless. And on the other hand he is a confused young man with no real experience of normal life. His interaction with others is mostly based on trial by error, testing, nudging, deciphering one detail at a time. However, as he might fault at experience, he is extremely observant, used to watching and waiting, and he will take a note of small nuances and changes. Given that, to learn more, he must experience, which makes him very prone to random interaction of all kind, whether it'd be that of pleasantries or bold questions.
It is hard to say what he finds personally pleasing or displeasing, as he is barely just knitting the first layer of his personality. He is capable of complex emotions such as embarrassment, guilt and even spite. However, he isn't quite certain why he is feeling what he does at the time. He is very easily subjected to influence by others, and his personality is bound to match his company. But despite his curiosity and willingness for change, some things will remain the same, such as his loyalty for Konoha and his suicide mentality towards the village and its people. He will serve and protect, whatever the cost. And he will not shy away from even the hard choices, one person's happiness means very little when regarding the health and survival of a whole village. It should also go without saying that his moral compass is, the least to say, fucked. He was raced to be an assassin, devout of all emotion and sympathy. He will not feel what is right or wrong. He might know how others prefer to think, but he just doesn't rock the same kind of equipment others do regarding morality, justice and social standards.
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