May 19, 2009 14:24
worthless
Adjective
1. without value or usefulness
2. without merit
That is what the last five months have seem to be. Yes, I put too much on my plate to do and yes, it was probably more than I could handle, but to see now that the time, the effort, the stress, and what I physically, emotionally, and mentally went through this semester has all been for nothing is so dejecting that the brightest sun could not lift my spirits. I feel completely entitled to these feelings, knowing that in everything thing I do, I strive for nothing less than excellence. Every person I know, and every job I have ever held will tell you the same. I cried for a long time and this hurt I am feeling about this semester will probably last more than a day. I can only focus that energy now to strive for something different; to recenter my self, and meditate on getting back on the path I strive to succeed in. I needed to let that out and come back to one.
"there is a way"