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i hate pumping myself up for something that i had a gut feeling it was gonna go wrong. i drove an hour to do this stupid interview that the band didn't even show up for, then i got my air time swiped by this fat chick. i mean no offense to fat chicks. i was just upset. i really don't have time to waste, especially this semester and the fact that i made the effort to get there over a half hour before my scheduled show, have it pushed back and hour, and still not have any air time really got me going. I mean seriously, my name WAS on the sheet of people to be there. I could have gone to a HelloGoodbye show, hung out with my friends or family. ANything, besides bs'ing around and eating just because I was bored. I drove all the way back home after that, with no success trying to get a hold of anyone who could entertain me on the way home. I'm really trying not to let certain things at home put me down. Before I left for school, my younger sister advised me that she was going to take my room after the construction, since i'm never gonna be home anymore. WHAT? After I argued with my parents to expand the closet and room so it was bigger... SHE gets the room. Fine. I'll let it slide. THen, I get back yesterday sleep in my nice comfy bed, and my sister says to me this morning: "Why were you sleeping in my bed?" I look at her completely dumbfounded to such a question and she's like yea that's my bed now. I don't understand it. Why? I asked my mom about it and she just laughed and said, "don't worry, we'll get you another one when she takes that one" Really now? So first it's my room, now my bed. I refuse to sleep on a twin. I am NOT back at the dorms. I don't really understand the thought process behind this, and why I wasn't even consulted in this whole move thing. I really don't wanna feel like I"m just being slowly pushed out of the family. My mom did offer to paint my "new" room for me beffore I get back for Thanksgiving break, which I doubt willl happen considering how busy her life is, but that would be a nice treat. Even if it were done before winter break that would still be awesome. I feel like I'm rambling right now, and I think I'm just gonna go to bed and pray for tomorrow to be better.
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