ruffneckin.
feel free to judge, i know its what you teenagers do best.
i have things backwords. in my mind, i have things backwords. and im not really sure if i know what i mean by that, but im trying just as hard as you to understand.
i found a spark of confidence the other day.
... i found that i act like i dont have a care in the world.
i like not having a care in the world.
alot.
i dont like how everyone is talking about college. i get really nervous hearing about college .
i found something i think i might do next year.
so i think im guna do it. i want to get an internship somewhere for mixing tracks, and making beats. i know it sounds unrealistic, you dont need to tell me that, but really, thats what i want to do. i want to make beats and put music together. i want to DJ . i want to do alot of things, but this, this is something that i love. i have a bunch of software for mixing music, but i never thought of it to be anything more than a hobby.
i also need to stop doing this?
i talked to my mom about alot of shit thats been going on with me, and i tihnk she finally understands where i stand. i really like that i have a mom who i can talk to about stupid high school shit. Like shes not one of those moms thats like " its just a phase blah blah blah" you can tell she listens to what im saying. i feel like i can tell my mom anything, and thats an amazing feeling.
i havnt been very productive in the whole no pot thing, its going to take alot hell of alot more than i thought to quit .
i like this entry.