Women
I've learned in life that you need to compromise but what i've also learned is that you can't ask a person to change. Especially if you have an intimate realtionship with that person. So if something bothers me about that person I try to decied if thats some thing thats really a part of them or if its something they learned. If it's something they learned then fine I'll try and compromise but it its part of that person I won't compromise and I won't tell them that it bothers me. I mean whats the point even if they are willing to changed they'll always revert back the thier original self. It's just like science. everything no matter how complex reverts back to its simple form, Carbon. So with theresa im doing the same thing. She doesn't feel like there's anything wrong with the relationship but I don't feel the connection that I felt with my previous girlfriend, and I hate comparing especially if its girlfriends. I like to keep the past in the past. Its pretty tough. I know im getting to that age where i need to find that right person but I love being single. I didn't have to worry about the girl fucking around and if i wannted some I could pretty much just go to a club and find some. Or i know some of my homegirls that would down for that too without any strings attatched. I don't feel like i should have to settle. Tonight theresa acted really imature and protrayed every thing i hate in girl. Notice i said girls and now women. Maybe this is karma for all the dirt I did in highschool. One thing is for sure...this relationship isn't going to last long unless there is some drastic change. Im to the point where im starting to feel edgy about saying I love you back to here. One because I don't mean it and two because im not being true to myself. This think about me not lasting long with her is not only the way I see it but some our mutual friends see the same thing. they tell me i deserve better, but I don't think im better than her. I don't think any person is better the anyone els. I don't know. God help me.