Shan's bday
So it was Shan's bday on Tuesday.. got her a puzzle and everything. and decided to go out bar hopping yesterday. I feel like shit cause i'm 19 and this is Buffalo. This isn't like Kuwait where I know everyone. I didn't grow up here. Nor am I a big fan of kissing ass to get in places. I always had people come up to me and go like.. yeah i know you.. you go to KES and dating so and so.. not that that would hardly mean they actually do know me.. but that's what it was like. Of course Leah's more than excited to go off and leave me while I always think of her first whenever someone asks me to go out. So I'm a lil peeved. After some temper tantrum and feelin like shit and her feeling upset thus, me feeling like shit some more.. even though I knew that I'd feel like an ass, went. Went to Fugazzi's, she was drunk after one martini, I held my drink fine. But my new Stilettos SUCKED. It was made by someone who hated girls and feet. Yeah. Fucking mutilation women go through. Because.. you know.. it's weird when you go to a presentation or a meeting wearing sneakers.. not that it symbolizes anything but casualness or comfortability.
NO. Some Tom Ford wanna-be designed evil shoes and called them in some Italian name and said it was a fashion craze. And now you can't really buy anything except fucking heels. Damn you men. All of you. ::breathes::
A good time though. Well minus my irkedness when Jacki was stripping my girlfriend. And Leah stood there sad. Well, hun, if you know I'm gonna get irked out then why the fuck do you do it and then feel bad. Do it and don't give a shit about me. I mean, if you're gonna annoy me.. do it right and piss me off. ::shrug:: Not to mention that's my girlfriend's body. I know Jacki's er best friend.. and Jacki made a comment "share!" and I'm like.. hell no. Leah's my girl. I mean, what do you want me to do, call you up when we're having sex and have you join? But I decided I was an asshole too much to begin with to hurt her more. Plus she was extremely drunk that I drove home. We stopped by a porn store for randomness. She made comments about wanting so bad to have sex, even though we had an awesome one before we left :). But I knew she was too damn tired and she looked so cute being drunk and sleepy and talking about sex and feeling me up while I was driving. We got home and brushed our teeths and went to bed. Not that we slept. We stayed up an hour or so more singing. ::laugh:: Yeah. Randomness. We did Frank Sinatra, that Can't take my eyes off you song, I think Beverly Hills.. and the Platters, Diana.. and other random oldies. Then we just fell asleep. The alarm went off around.. 8 am. We just kept hitting the snooze button til it was 10 am. Greatness.
She's out at work and here I am having to deal with my best friend being pissed off with my girlfriend. Just about two days ago, he came in, erased his name from the LGBTA message board and walked out. Reasons: he said something like.. "I know my place and I'll put myself there". And I don't know if it's losing the election. Or it's Leah. But he's been so irky about it. I'm sorry I didn't see him as someone who would be more capable than Shan. I'm not in it for popularity reasons. And I don't want the president to be elected solely on the fact my best friend should have the title. I don't want the club to run aground. Right now we need someone who can kind of pick it up after the last fallout of all the Fall 05 Eboard members disappearing.
And let's face it. Geoff is good with insults. Well. Sort of. But as his friend, I'll appreciate it or laugh at it. For someone who doesn't know him.. they get pretty fucking annoyed. And I see where they'd come from. Because he can be so narrowminded and he never wants to hear another side of things. How many of my friends get along with each other.. while he's the odd one out. He would insult people. Sit there and have people ask him what's wrong. Obviously show he's upset or not well. But he'll say there's nothing wrong. He'll insult my other friends. Or their hairstyle. Or their lifestyle. Hell, as my best friend he never had NOT insulted any of my gfs at the time. Not a single one he went ahead and respected. Respected because theyre people too. And respected cause they're making me happy. Oh no. He rejoices when there's trouble between me and the person I'm dating. I try. Maybe not hard enough. Or maybe too harsh. But for a person who won't see it in any other way, I've tried easing it onto him only to be shotdown with some belligerent insulting comment that makes me want to shoot him with a tranquilizer. And I've tried slamming things in his face. Neither works. He needs to figure this out himself.