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I think my life is just at a standstill right now, but a twisting standstill. I feel like a slave to everyone around me, just trying to please and entertain everyone else. It's sad. I know. I think I need to sort things out, take some time, think (as though I already do not), and come back to this same conclusion for everything that I am at right now. My conclusion? Well, it's personal. Not really, though. Considering that it's just to let things be. I think it'd be pretty funny and ridiculous if my life and everything in it was an allegory, goes to show how that "everything has a purpose" cliche is true. I guess life is like Rome, it's all good but all good things just well - die. I don't like how I use cliches alot. But originality is dead.
I get really happy when Jensen comes over. I don't know if he knows that, but if he does, then I hope he realizes how much I appreciate it. I guess I'm just that much of a lonely person that just to spend a few hours with someone who (I think) shares mutual (more or less) feelings with me, makes me high as a kite. I love this guy. And for a reason or another - it's like, maybe just fuckin' maybe, he might be the one. I somewhat hope he is. I don't really want to find someone new and start at point a all over again, as lame as that sounds. I like the stability. I just hope he's happy, and well, satisfied. And tomorrow he's coming with my family to go shopping, I hope that goes well too. On Sunday he's going to do stuff with Jessica Gerson. HEH. That's much of what I have to say.
Again.
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I get really happy when Jensen comes over. I don't know if he knows that, but if he does, then I hope he realizes how much I appreciate it. I guess I'm just that much of a lonely person that just to spend a few hours with someone who (I think) shares mutual (more or less) feelings with me, makes me high as a kite. I love this guy. And for a reason or another - it's like, maybe just fuckin' maybe, he might be the one. I somewhat hope he is. I don't really want to find someone new and start at point a all over again, as lame as that sounds. I like the stability. I just hope he's happy, and well, satisfied. And tomorrow he's coming with my family to go shopping, I hope that goes well too. On Sunday he's going to do stuff with Jessica Gerson. HEH. That's much of what I have to say.
Again.
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