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wow. worst day of my life. the unthinkable happened today. and i have no idea how im going to get through this. im so scared. idk what to do. idk what to think. what to say. idk anything. the only thing i know is i need mike here. to hold me. and comfort me. and tell me everything will be okay, even though i know it wont. i want her to come back. tell me im dreaming. and never leave me. hearing those words, omg. it tore me apart. i am seriously dead inside. and i dont know how to go on like this. im scared. so very scared.
and then im worried about mike. ahhh. so much stress !! hunny ---- things will be okay. just be strong. for yourself. you need to be strong. i need you to be strong. i love you. so much. and im here for you. no matter what. who cares about whats goin on with me, if you need to talk, im here. always. <33 i love you so much mike. 10 days. i promise i wont let you down. i dont care where we stay. we can stay outside on the sidewalk for all i care. just as long as im in your arms. thats all im asking for. we'll figure this out. i promise. no matter what it takes. i love you. and i will see you. no matter what. i love you.
beau told me he'd be my best friend today. told him i needed one cause i lost all of mine. mike is my best friend, and then beau is my best friend. so i got 2 good friends now. that i know wont leave me. which makes me feel a little better. beau made me smile today. and i thank him for that. <3 he's so nice to me.
alright. that's enough for today. not going to school at least monday && tuesday. we'll see from there. gotta go at least one day this week to get my pre-absence papers. i leave in 10 days...week from wednesday. man, im gunna need that. couldnt have been at a more perfect time. just to feel his arms around me, ah. would do wonders for me right now. i wish he was here. fdjak.
alright, bye guys.
< ///// 3 --- The heart broken Kari..
and then im worried about mike. ahhh. so much stress !! hunny ---- things will be okay. just be strong. for yourself. you need to be strong. i need you to be strong. i love you. so much. and im here for you. no matter what. who cares about whats goin on with me, if you need to talk, im here. always. <33 i love you so much mike. 10 days. i promise i wont let you down. i dont care where we stay. we can stay outside on the sidewalk for all i care. just as long as im in your arms. thats all im asking for. we'll figure this out. i promise. no matter what it takes. i love you. and i will see you. no matter what. i love you.
beau told me he'd be my best friend today. told him i needed one cause i lost all of mine. mike is my best friend, and then beau is my best friend. so i got 2 good friends now. that i know wont leave me. which makes me feel a little better. beau made me smile today. and i thank him for that. <3 he's so nice to me.
alright. that's enough for today. not going to school at least monday && tuesday. we'll see from there. gotta go at least one day this week to get my pre-absence papers. i leave in 10 days...week from wednesday. man, im gunna need that. couldnt have been at a more perfect time. just to feel his arms around me, ah. would do wonders for me right now. i wish he was here. fdjak.
alright, bye guys.
< ///// 3 --- The heart broken Kari..