WHAT. DO I DO.
I've wanted to write and to post for so long but I don't know what it is. I just run out of time or lose my intention by the end of the day.
Wake up ~ 8:15am
Get dressed, start breakfast, make lunch 8:30-9:15am
Leave for work ~ 9:15-9:30am
Arrive at work 10am
Work 10am-5pm
Get home ~ 5:30-5:45 depending on traffic/weather conditions
Change, hop on treadmill ~ 6pm-6:30pm
Exercise ~ 6:30-7:30
Shower ~ 7:30-8pm
Eat small snack ~ 8-8:45pm (slow eater/cooker/decider)
By this point, around 9pm all I want to do is just lay somewhere and watch mindless television. Which, surprise surprise, I end up doing. I don't have the brain power/energy to just close myself up in my room and unwind by reading a book or going on my laptop without browsing tumblr. Whoops. So....here I am, taking a few minutes out of work (got down time and aren't we allowed a ten minute break every two hours?!) to update this thing.
Oh and by ze way, I've permanently lost 6 pounds what what. You know how you weigh something different in the morning than you do at night? Or how you flip flop back and forth throughout the day or even a week between a few pounds? Well, I've permanently lost 6 pounds. They're gone, off my belly and off my boobs apparently. I'm so happy =) At this rate I should be able to lose another 6 pounds by January and another 6 by March. Now that would be something. If only I knew how to get rid of these pesky love handles....
Something's wrong with my ears. I'll wake up and one of them's all plugged up. It's not an earwax problem because I'll clean them out and I'll get nothing. The wax isn't watery or crusty like before (gross I know)-- it's almost like I don't have any. I get sharp pains directly into my ear and then they feel sore for the majority of the day. Maybe that's why I have headaches? I don't have a fever or any flu-like symptoms so it can't be an ear-infection. It feels like it traveled too, from one ear to the other. This morning, everything sounded muffled. It was really strange and of course disconcerting. I don't have time to see a doctor! Not until January anyway...
12/08/12: Gingerbread house making! (shit I need to pick that up), Christmas in the Park with the fam, dinner @ BJs with buddies (mentally prepare, everyone's going...)
12/09/12: Claymation Celebration @noon to 6pmish (this feels like a good day for a hot dog) XD
12/12/12: SEND COMPANY CHRISTMAS CARDS YOU PIECE OF SHIT
12/13/12: Court meeting (if it doesn't get settled we're off to trial; Mohinder knows his shit, we'll be fine), THE HOBBIT PREMIERE 12:15AM @ MERCADO
12/14/12: Bring Amazing Christmas Treats to Work to Celebrate Not Going to Trial day (Gary might wear a sweater that lights up. Yes.), Ugly Sweater party @ Gio's (don't have one...must rummage through mom's stuff OHHHHH)
12/15/12: Mum's birthday party
12/16/12: Mum's birthday party #2
12/17/12: Mum's actual birthday (shit! shopping! jewlery?!? shit!)
12/20/12: Dredg in San Fran ("that's what happensss when you play catch without armss")
12/21/12: Dredg again @ the Catalyst (yeah we might be fans...), leave work early ;D
12/22/12: Holiday party but I don't wanna (i'm the worst ex-coworker buddy ever)
12/23/12: Should probably buy presents by this point
12/24/12: Really need stocking stuffers by this point
12/25/12: Some Holiday or Some Shit, LES MISERABLES PREMIERE HOLY FUCKS GO
12/26/12: report back to work after 4 days off
12/28/12: leave work early for another 4 days off
Seriously, this month is the best and we're 5 days in. ;D
So it's been a crazy day so far and it's barely 1pm. I sat down last night and just contemplated some things and I'm truly at a crossroads. I've wanted to go to grad school since I heard about such a magical place and I have no intention of skipping it. But ever since Gio told me she was surprised that I was already applying, I can't shake that feeling that perhaps this isn't the best time to go. I've had my eye on that goal for so long I feel like I might be rushing into it. But am I?
I want to pay off my loans. I've gotten them down from $27,000 to $22,000 in the past 7 months and I'm on a roll. I have an excellent job that I love and it will break my heart to leave it so soon. I could use time next year to travel or do my own research instead of diving right into a new curriculum still in debt. I could attend conferences and seriously buckle down (go over my work, write a paper myself) before applying. Everything sort of just crash landed into this month and I don't want to do this without committing myself 100%. I don't know what to do.
If I keep waiting, I won't get my master's degree until I'm 30. I don't know if I can handle living at home for another 5 years! Times a-wastin and I would be mentally prepared for grad school tomorrow. Just the thought of finally immersing myself into my passion is too irresistable and the more I wait, the unhappier I feel. I want to keep moving forward, keep learning and absorbing, I want to get my hands dirty and my brain buzzing. I miss school so much it's ridiculous. Just reading about the research objectives in doing my grad school research got my heart pumping with excitment. I have to wait even more to get this going?
An expert called and asked me how my GRE test went. Apparently Gary had told them that I wasn't in the office that day because I was getting ready for grad school. He congratulated me and said "you know, it's a big step. We were all kinda hoping you would stick around for a bit longer. You're barely getting your feet wet and grad school's there, it's not going anywhere. Maybe you could create a career with us." This guy is a forensic expert, something that I was briefly considering.
But see, here are my passions: human evolution and bioarchaeology. I would feel like I cheated myself by going into forensic anthropology instead. Of course, I've seen this expert's bills, I know exactly how much they make just coming to the office and it's pretty staggering! I would get to travel a lot (at the lawyer's expense) and appear in court, which I wouldn't mind doing at all if they paid me $10,000 a trial. I want this to be plan B though. Again, it's not my passion, it's not my goal. If my goal was to make money I would be going to law school. I really would.
Anyway I'm flipping back and forth and I have until next month to make a decision.
What should I do. Hmm.
Wake up ~ 8:15am
Get dressed, start breakfast, make lunch 8:30-9:15am
Leave for work ~ 9:15-9:30am
Arrive at work 10am
Work 10am-5pm
Get home ~ 5:30-5:45 depending on traffic/weather conditions
Change, hop on treadmill ~ 6pm-6:30pm
Exercise ~ 6:30-7:30
Shower ~ 7:30-8pm
Eat small snack ~ 8-8:45pm (slow eater/cooker/decider)
By this point, around 9pm all I want to do is just lay somewhere and watch mindless television. Which, surprise surprise, I end up doing. I don't have the brain power/energy to just close myself up in my room and unwind by reading a book or going on my laptop without browsing tumblr. Whoops. So....here I am, taking a few minutes out of work (got down time and aren't we allowed a ten minute break every two hours?!) to update this thing.
Oh and by ze way, I've permanently lost 6 pounds what what. You know how you weigh something different in the morning than you do at night? Or how you flip flop back and forth throughout the day or even a week between a few pounds? Well, I've permanently lost 6 pounds. They're gone, off my belly and off my boobs apparently. I'm so happy =) At this rate I should be able to lose another 6 pounds by January and another 6 by March. Now that would be something. If only I knew how to get rid of these pesky love handles....
Something's wrong with my ears. I'll wake up and one of them's all plugged up. It's not an earwax problem because I'll clean them out and I'll get nothing. The wax isn't watery or crusty like before (gross I know)-- it's almost like I don't have any. I get sharp pains directly into my ear and then they feel sore for the majority of the day. Maybe that's why I have headaches? I don't have a fever or any flu-like symptoms so it can't be an ear-infection. It feels like it traveled too, from one ear to the other. This morning, everything sounded muffled. It was really strange and of course disconcerting. I don't have time to see a doctor! Not until January anyway...
12/08/12: Gingerbread house making! (shit I need to pick that up), Christmas in the Park with the fam, dinner @ BJs with buddies (mentally prepare, everyone's going...)
12/09/12: Claymation Celebration @noon to 6pmish (this feels like a good day for a hot dog) XD
12/12/12: SEND COMPANY CHRISTMAS CARDS YOU PIECE OF SHIT
12/13/12: Court meeting (if it doesn't get settled we're off to trial; Mohinder knows his shit, we'll be fine), THE HOBBIT PREMIERE 12:15AM @ MERCADO
12/14/12: Bring Amazing Christmas Treats to Work to Celebrate Not Going to Trial day (Gary might wear a sweater that lights up. Yes.), Ugly Sweater party @ Gio's (don't have one...must rummage through mom's stuff OHHHHH)
12/15/12: Mum's birthday party
12/16/12: Mum's birthday party #2
12/17/12: Mum's actual birthday (shit! shopping! jewlery?!? shit!)
12/20/12: Dredg in San Fran ("that's what happensss when you play catch without armss")
12/21/12: Dredg again @ the Catalyst (yeah we might be fans...), leave work early ;D
12/22/12: Holiday party but I don't wanna (i'm the worst ex-coworker buddy ever)
12/23/12: Should probably buy presents by this point
12/24/12: Really need stocking stuffers by this point
12/25/12: Some Holiday or Some Shit, LES MISERABLES PREMIERE HOLY FUCKS GO
12/26/12: report back to work after 4 days off
12/28/12: leave work early for another 4 days off
Seriously, this month is the best and we're 5 days in. ;D
So it's been a crazy day so far and it's barely 1pm. I sat down last night and just contemplated some things and I'm truly at a crossroads. I've wanted to go to grad school since I heard about such a magical place and I have no intention of skipping it. But ever since Gio told me she was surprised that I was already applying, I can't shake that feeling that perhaps this isn't the best time to go. I've had my eye on that goal for so long I feel like I might be rushing into it. But am I?
I want to pay off my loans. I've gotten them down from $27,000 to $22,000 in the past 7 months and I'm on a roll. I have an excellent job that I love and it will break my heart to leave it so soon. I could use time next year to travel or do my own research instead of diving right into a new curriculum still in debt. I could attend conferences and seriously buckle down (go over my work, write a paper myself) before applying. Everything sort of just crash landed into this month and I don't want to do this without committing myself 100%. I don't know what to do.
If I keep waiting, I won't get my master's degree until I'm 30. I don't know if I can handle living at home for another 5 years! Times a-wastin and I would be mentally prepared for grad school tomorrow. Just the thought of finally immersing myself into my passion is too irresistable and the more I wait, the unhappier I feel. I want to keep moving forward, keep learning and absorbing, I want to get my hands dirty and my brain buzzing. I miss school so much it's ridiculous. Just reading about the research objectives in doing my grad school research got my heart pumping with excitment. I have to wait even more to get this going?
An expert called and asked me how my GRE test went. Apparently Gary had told them that I wasn't in the office that day because I was getting ready for grad school. He congratulated me and said "you know, it's a big step. We were all kinda hoping you would stick around for a bit longer. You're barely getting your feet wet and grad school's there, it's not going anywhere. Maybe you could create a career with us." This guy is a forensic expert, something that I was briefly considering.
But see, here are my passions: human evolution and bioarchaeology. I would feel like I cheated myself by going into forensic anthropology instead. Of course, I've seen this expert's bills, I know exactly how much they make just coming to the office and it's pretty staggering! I would get to travel a lot (at the lawyer's expense) and appear in court, which I wouldn't mind doing at all if they paid me $10,000 a trial. I want this to be plan B though. Again, it's not my passion, it's not my goal. If my goal was to make money I would be going to law school. I really would.
Anyway I'm flipping back and forth and I have until next month to make a decision.
What should I do. Hmm.