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i just got back from d-land and on the way home i realized a few things 1) i love gay boys 2) louis vuitton is racist*donmt shop there 3)i miss someone that i hadnt thought about in a while SO much....and in realizing all this i also came to the realization that in the past 5ish months i havent been myself at all. ive surrounded myseld with fake...everything, the people , personalities, everything...and im so tired of it i just want to find someone who is happy with being themself and at salpointe i can see this is going to take a while to accomplish. i also miss someone so much-i just miss their voice and the sent of this persons skin...i miss it so much. i talked to this person and he made me see that i should let things get to me as much as i do and im trying to hard to do so-but its harder than ever now. i want to move to los angeles so badly and i my mom was even thinking about it ...sighhh but then changed her mind....my life would be so much better there...away from everything here ... im just so sick of my life .... i want to start over and never look back but thats not going to happen....o fuck and now i cant talk to debaters anymore...mother fucker i might as well just go work at disneyland as snow white..then id be happy and id get to marry brent...my fav. gay guy who works a gucci...sigh if only...if only...
love*most of you* tons Madeline
oh and this wasnt directed at anyone in paticular even tho it might seem like it , its really not ....
love*most of you* tons Madeline
oh and this wasnt directed at anyone in paticular even tho it might seem like it , its really not ....