just got news
yea...so she got her test results back yesterday....she needs surgery...she has nerve damage in her back and 2 discs fused together to do that damage and they need to remove those discs...and because of the those discs it cut off blood flow to one of her kidneys...so part of it must be removed...i know its not the worst than could have happened...but i'm freaking out...i dont like the idea of surgery...its always freaked me out...especially anything ivolving the back....i dont even know how to express my feelings, my emotions...i sat in the breakroom and cried at work yesterday...i hate this feeling of helplessness...and one thing is...mom told at least 2 ppl at work about the kidney thing....b/c they knew about it before i said it...i came home and confronted her about it and she said she didnt want to worry me...and that she was sorry that she doesnt know how to handle this kind of stuff...i would rather have some ideaof what may be happening than be left completely in the dark...but right now i am being very appriciatative of my best, lexy, for her support and for being there for me...she offered to stay with me while my mother is in the hospital to help out around the house and for emotional support...i cant say how much i need that and will need that...this next few months is going to be complete hell