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you know, sometimes i wish i had the flow of a writer. i have so many things to tell, but i cant even put down what im thinking right now. after watching donnie darko, a strange movie, it made me think about life in general.
what if there are things that we dont know exist? are our lives controlled by fate? is everything pre-decided? even if you change your mind on something, it was still pre-decided? do we have the free will to live? can we do anything we want? if i want to look at things as simple as it could be, like for example, as proven/discussed by science.. we have evolved from monkeys. the universe was created by the big bang. the dinosaurs went extinct probably because of a deadly meteor shower or an ice age. id guess that our lives are controlled by ourselves, not fate nor destiny. not even God/gods/goddesses. are you living your life as youd want to? are you happy with your life? i mean, you're in control of your life. you have 100% control over your own life.
but then that makes me wonder, am i having the full control of my life? why am i going to college? i do this mostly because of my parents and my future. do i really want to go to college? yeah. im still thirsty for knowledge. without a college degree, i wouldnt be able to get a good paying job.
do i really want to work? i dont think so. i mean, i dont even think everybody wants to. if each one of us had the money in the whole world, none of us would be working, but then how would we be able to "run" the world? how did the whole idea of money and business came up? since when? the babylonian time? how did they know that they need money and businesses to keep the civilization running? do we really need money and businesses to keep this whole thing running?
am i 100% happy with myself? i say no. what can i do to change myself? i dont know. there are flaws that i have that made the person i am today. since i have 100% control of my life, why am i NOT taking control? why are there way too many distractions on this planet for me to be able to take control?
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are we being controlled? i mean, i love to eat. id LOVE to be skinny, but i cant be skinny because i love food. id die happily if id be able to eat chipotle and taco bell everyday. but of course id die from heart failure due to obesity. id love to just not work. but then i need money to be able to live in this world. if i want shelter and food, i need money. how to get money? work. are we being controlled by the human race? to get the things you need in life, you have to do what is needed to be done. the things that were created by a civilization.
OK, I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE ALL OF THIS CAME FROM AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT POINT IM TRYING TO MAKE.
what if there are things that we dont know exist? are our lives controlled by fate? is everything pre-decided? even if you change your mind on something, it was still pre-decided? do we have the free will to live? can we do anything we want? if i want to look at things as simple as it could be, like for example, as proven/discussed by science.. we have evolved from monkeys. the universe was created by the big bang. the dinosaurs went extinct probably because of a deadly meteor shower or an ice age. id guess that our lives are controlled by ourselves, not fate nor destiny. not even God/gods/goddesses. are you living your life as youd want to? are you happy with your life? i mean, you're in control of your life. you have 100% control over your own life.
but then that makes me wonder, am i having the full control of my life? why am i going to college? i do this mostly because of my parents and my future. do i really want to go to college? yeah. im still thirsty for knowledge. without a college degree, i wouldnt be able to get a good paying job.
do i really want to work? i dont think so. i mean, i dont even think everybody wants to. if each one of us had the money in the whole world, none of us would be working, but then how would we be able to "run" the world? how did the whole idea of money and business came up? since when? the babylonian time? how did they know that they need money and businesses to keep the civilization running? do we really need money and businesses to keep this whole thing running?
am i 100% happy with myself? i say no. what can i do to change myself? i dont know. there are flaws that i have that made the person i am today. since i have 100% control of my life, why am i NOT taking control? why are there way too many distractions on this planet for me to be able to take control?
or
are we being controlled? i mean, i love to eat. id LOVE to be skinny, but i cant be skinny because i love food. id die happily if id be able to eat chipotle and taco bell everyday. but of course id die from heart failure due to obesity. id love to just not work. but then i need money to be able to live in this world. if i want shelter and food, i need money. how to get money? work. are we being controlled by the human race? to get the things you need in life, you have to do what is needed to be done. the things that were created by a civilization.
OK, I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE ALL OF THIS CAME FROM AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT POINT IM TRYING TO MAKE.