2 years before
This was a post I made 1 year ago today:
"Well, it's September 11th....It's weird to think back to last year, I remember exactly where I was when I heard. I was in Algebra, 3rd period, when our principal came over the PA system. At first it didn't seem like a big deal, all we really knew was that a plane had hit the World Trade Center. So the bell rang, and I proceeded to 4th period, French. Our teacher had the news on and as soon as I walked in the 2nd plane hit the other tower. I will never, ever forget that...it replays in my mind many times as I sit here thinking about it. We sat in disbelief and horror, watching the news for 1 1/2 hours (thats how long classes were last year). All those people on the planes...knowing their fate, how horrible that must of been...its mind shattering......
Now, I'm sitting here and thinking about my life this last year. I wish all of you had known me then, I have changed so much it really isnt funny. This year was definetly my worst, I went through so many things that most people don't go through in a lifetime. I went through drug addiction (pot and cocaine). Getting clean had to be one of the hardest things I have EVER done..it is still hard. I went through problems at home, from getting kicked out of my house to being baker acted and put in a behavioral center for 5 days because I had tried to commit suicide (which I had done twice b4, or attempted shall I say, but no on really knew). I went through problems at school....from failing a class (I'm not used to getting C's) to getting 3 days suspension for having cigarettes in my car (I quit smoking too). I lost ALOT of friends that have not been so willing to forgive me for things I did to them when I was using. And that is really hard, its been a year and I am finally starting to make progress with my old friends again.
I was thinking earlier, and I dont know why this hasnt dawned on me before even tho I hear it ALL the time.....but NEVER take anyone or any day for granted, because in all likelihood you really dont know if they will be there tomorrow, or if there will even be a tomorrow....
I hope that when you guys read this you will get a better understanding of me and my outlook on life and why I'm depressed alot.
Today was a very somber day, it was rainy...which I thought was VERY ironic. It's already been a year, and yet it still only seems like it was yesterday.
Thats all I raelly have to say right now, its only 10:00, maybe I'll write more later, maybe not, depends on how the rest of my night goes.....
"Earth's Destruction"
Violent Reactions
Bitter Dreams
Horrific Cries
Hollow Lives
Dreadful days
Drawn out nights
Wandering Spirits
Meaningless Dreams
Hostile cultures
Eternal gloom
Menacing creatures
Inevitable doom
Shattered earth
Defeated and dead
Shattered earth
Sadistic and emotionless
Shattered earth
Battered and scarred
Shattered earth
Fallen and lifeless
Shattered earth
Pathetic and tortured
Shattered earth
Frozen and helpless
Shattered earth
Apathetic and terrified
I wrote this one when i was really depressed and coming off coke, so its kinda weird. I had an idea for it to be a very slow, menacing song, played behind a nice melodic, lyrical trance/industrial beat....but what do i know."
wow, its so weird to go back and read that. i cant believe its been another year. how time does fly...
much love to all my friends on this somber day <3 ~Kevin~
"Well, it's September 11th....It's weird to think back to last year, I remember exactly where I was when I heard. I was in Algebra, 3rd period, when our principal came over the PA system. At first it didn't seem like a big deal, all we really knew was that a plane had hit the World Trade Center. So the bell rang, and I proceeded to 4th period, French. Our teacher had the news on and as soon as I walked in the 2nd plane hit the other tower. I will never, ever forget that...it replays in my mind many times as I sit here thinking about it. We sat in disbelief and horror, watching the news for 1 1/2 hours (thats how long classes were last year). All those people on the planes...knowing their fate, how horrible that must of been...its mind shattering......
Now, I'm sitting here and thinking about my life this last year. I wish all of you had known me then, I have changed so much it really isnt funny. This year was definetly my worst, I went through so many things that most people don't go through in a lifetime. I went through drug addiction (pot and cocaine). Getting clean had to be one of the hardest things I have EVER done..it is still hard. I went through problems at home, from getting kicked out of my house to being baker acted and put in a behavioral center for 5 days because I had tried to commit suicide (which I had done twice b4, or attempted shall I say, but no on really knew). I went through problems at school....from failing a class (I'm not used to getting C's) to getting 3 days suspension for having cigarettes in my car (I quit smoking too). I lost ALOT of friends that have not been so willing to forgive me for things I did to them when I was using. And that is really hard, its been a year and I am finally starting to make progress with my old friends again.
I was thinking earlier, and I dont know why this hasnt dawned on me before even tho I hear it ALL the time.....but NEVER take anyone or any day for granted, because in all likelihood you really dont know if they will be there tomorrow, or if there will even be a tomorrow....
I hope that when you guys read this you will get a better understanding of me and my outlook on life and why I'm depressed alot.
Today was a very somber day, it was rainy...which I thought was VERY ironic. It's already been a year, and yet it still only seems like it was yesterday.
Thats all I raelly have to say right now, its only 10:00, maybe I'll write more later, maybe not, depends on how the rest of my night goes.....
"Earth's Destruction"
Violent Reactions
Bitter Dreams
Horrific Cries
Hollow Lives
Dreadful days
Drawn out nights
Wandering Spirits
Meaningless Dreams
Hostile cultures
Eternal gloom
Menacing creatures
Inevitable doom
Shattered earth
Defeated and dead
Shattered earth
Sadistic and emotionless
Shattered earth
Battered and scarred
Shattered earth
Fallen and lifeless
Shattered earth
Pathetic and tortured
Shattered earth
Frozen and helpless
Shattered earth
Apathetic and terrified
I wrote this one when i was really depressed and coming off coke, so its kinda weird. I had an idea for it to be a very slow, menacing song, played behind a nice melodic, lyrical trance/industrial beat....but what do i know."
wow, its so weird to go back and read that. i cant believe its been another year. how time does fly...
much love to all my friends on this somber day <3 ~Kevin~