derrick your hostality shows that you still harbor feelings towards me. why not let it go like you have told me to do so many times before. I reached out to be your friend when I realized I was not going to get to date you but you didn't want it. I never have fully understand why you resent me so...but that is your problem now (which is clear to me now because you felt the need to sign up for another LJ account just to post a comment in my LJ.....again I'll say..."thought you never read my journal). there's a reason you still do. And that reason gives me a smile.
And I wasn't on a vacation out here...who in their right mind sales all his furniture, gives away half his stuff, travels 33 hours by car, moves to hollywood and works in burbank just to vacation...that's not what I'd call a vacation lol But if that's how you see it, that's how you see it...anything that will make you feel better about being the only person that hates me then by all means go for it.
I'm happy in my life. i'm strong enough to support my family in their time of need. My overwhelming reason to return is my grandfather. if I lost him before I could see him alive again, I'll shoulder that the rest of my life. I'm coming back to hollywood...but not until things in my family life stablize. I don't have any reason or responsiblity to prove that to you. You can believe what you wish.
Just because you can't see me how others do, is not my problem. You did when you met me...you were on me like a bee to honey. But your own insecurities foiled it. You like the bad boy image...the boys no one should want (aka Brian) cause that gives you a reason to get rid of them. But because I was actually a good guy...i finished last. well I didn't finish last. At one point i had you chasing me and then the tables turned for a very long time. But i've already stood up from this table a few months ago. I tried for a friendship like i said....but you are too proud for that.
And who are you to throw stones and accuse me of going back to indiana cause my 'vacation' is over...when my grandfather is dieing...a decent human being would never act that way. And your fag hag of a sister enjoys doing dirty work for you. She messages me on my phone hateful things and yet I do nothing back to her. Isn't it funny that she cheated on her hushand and is now pregnant by her husband (let's hope) and yet she feels like I'm dirt....just a funny thought.
I guess we're not all perfect and at one point I felt I was a terrible person for the way things happened between us but then I met so many people that have approved of me. and it made me realize that one bad apple can't possiblity ruin my apple pie.
p.s. I did that photoshopped picture at 3 a.m. last night and had to work at 7 in burbank I didn't give a rat's ass if it wasn't "perfect"..much like yourself...well much like you think you are anyway. Just because I haven't mastered photoshop (which proves i don't spend all my time in front of a computer like you) doesn't mean I can't out perform you in any number of areas...you seem to like to compete with me....saying you're better at making websites, you're better looking....you're better at whatever you fill your head with. But you fail to realize any of view point outside your own mind. So why don't you get the balls to speak to me personally instead of via fake LJ names or through your sister...because until then I'm a better person than you are....now how about some of this warm apple pie!
1) If you feel the need to reply to anything someone says that you take offence to, isnt it being a little self absorbed to bash someone (as well as air personal infomation about his family members), while at the same time deleting the posts you are referring to? If you are man enough to attack somone, you should be man enough to let it be known what they said.
2) As someone who only sees your LJ via frineds pages, and dont knwo you at all, I can only say from the outside, reading your posts, I dont buy anything you say either. I can literally start reading one of your posts, and could finish writing it myself because its so predictible, To belive you, you are hte hottest , most sought after man alive, who is worshiped by all, showered with gifts, offered every job imaginable etc. BTW you do know that in Los Angeles, EVERYONE is an actor. Getting a job as an extra isnt shit..its 75$ to stand around all day long doing nothing and crossing the street on cue. "Interviews for reality shows"??? Um..HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF PPL DO THIS..thats why they are called open casting calls. If Cindy Brady and Swayze are your 'brushes wiht greatness" you are hanging out in the wrong part of LA. Go to the mall you wil see them all there.
You are a skinny twink who has so little self esteem, you strip at fag bars for attention and god only knows what else. It honestly sounds like you have a genuine heart, but are trying so hard to make people see you in a certain way. You might wanna spend more time learning to like yourself and not so much time trying to make everyone else like you.
Hopefully you understand that few if any people from "back home" are going to buy this story that you actulaly moved to LA or intended to stay there. Its all too predictible
LOL well you obviously don't know what's going on here...first of all...I DID NOT DELETE THAT POST. I'm sure you're aware that the person that makes the post is able to delete the post as well. Which is what happened! Derrick emailed me to let me know that it wasn't him to clear his name and I believe him.
You obviously felt the desire to post this HUGE comment in my journal because you must read every thing I saw...since you know all that I do which is bullshit since I don't get on LJ to write all about my life.
1) people back home know I moved to LA. Some of the people that read my LJ have seen me out and about. Why in hell would I sale all my furniture, get in my car and drive 32 hours to LA NOT to move here. I had a great job, good friends, and nice location to live. But my family is sick and I am human. I feel for them and want to be near them. So take me to the stake and burn me like the witch that I must be for trying to live my life. Attack me as you must to feel better about yourself. I've done none of that. I'm just relaying my life on MY livejournal...if you walk into it, tough shit. You don't have to read what I say, you don't have to agree with what I say.
2) I love that you can conclude things about who I am without ever meeting me. This is the internet for God's sake! We can be anyone we want on here. The fact that you think I deleted the post by the other person, in which I DID NOT, shows just how unreliable your information is. You THOUHGT and ASSUMED i deleted the post...false....therefore how am I to believe or anyone to believe anything else you just said when you dont even have the facts right from the beginning?
3) You are entitled to your opinions. I am not here to change your mind. But obviously I would disagree with what you say as your attacks towards me. I love my life. And the things that I said about eing in LA and meeting people and getting work, etc....these things happened for me in 2 short months....they are a spring board to better things to come. Honestly, do you fucking think that in 2 mos. I would be posting OMG WELL LIKE I"M FAMOUS NOW AND IT ONLY TOOK 2 MOS. please...i started at where everyone else did, made some connections, met some great people. And gawd the reality tv show..honey...you need to get the FACTS. I was not trying out for the reality show...I was interviewed for a JOB.....now let's see...do they really interview thousands of people for ONE job on a reality tv show? again, get your facts first. Reality TV show job...NOT cast member. So throw your punches, they all out being done through assumptions. Opening casting calls...I'm not fucking stupid. I have a degree in tv production if you really read my damn journal you'd know that I was here trying to get into production..keep up.
ANd for you to say no one back home is going to buy that I"m in LA...could you please let me know who all you know from "back home" that you have consulted that dont believe me...cause to my knowledge you don't know any of the people I associate with since you don't fucking know me or have met me. you even say you don't know me in your post then go on to say no one back home will believe me...that's fucking funny. Umm I don't know you but I will say no one that knows you believes you. who the fuck are you? george bush? you both seem to have a warped since of information.
so to please you I'm not going to delete your post. I never deleted the other one. who ever it was deleted it I'm sure so he could post again...cause if he left the post up I'm able to ban him which suggests someone has too much time on their hands to care so much about my life that they ignore their own.
but at any rate, I've given this too much time as it is. I big flaw of mine is that I care too much of what others think of me because I want to be a good person...but obviously I'm not going to please everyone...as you can atest to.
I have an interesting life...you can watch it if you want, but I would suggest going out and having your own.
And I wasn't on a vacation out here...who in their right mind sales all his furniture, gives away half his stuff, travels 33 hours by car, moves to hollywood and works in burbank just to vacation...that's not what I'd call a vacation lol But if that's how you see it, that's how you see it...anything that will make you feel better about being the only person that hates me then by all means go for it.
I'm happy in my life. i'm strong enough to support my family in their time of need. My overwhelming reason to return is my grandfather. if I lost him before I could see him alive again, I'll shoulder that the rest of my life. I'm coming back to hollywood...but not until things in my family life stablize. I don't have any reason or responsiblity to prove that to you. You can believe what you wish.
Just because you can't see me how others do, is not my problem. You did when you met me...you were on me like a bee to honey. But your own insecurities foiled it. You like the bad boy image...the boys no one should want (aka Brian) cause that gives you a reason to get rid of them. But because I was actually a good guy...i finished last. well I didn't finish last. At one point i had you chasing me and then the tables turned for a very long time. But i've already stood up from this table a few months ago. I tried for a friendship like i said....but you are too proud for that.
And who are you to throw stones and accuse me of going back to indiana cause my 'vacation' is over...when my grandfather is dieing...a decent human being would never act that way. And your fag hag of a sister enjoys doing dirty work for you. She messages me on my phone hateful things and yet I do nothing back to her. Isn't it funny that she cheated on her hushand and is now pregnant by her husband (let's hope) and yet she feels like I'm dirt....just a funny thought.
I guess we're not all perfect and at one point I felt I was a terrible person for the way things happened between us but then I met so many people that have approved of me. and it made me realize that one bad apple can't possiblity ruin my apple pie.
p.s. I did that photoshopped picture at 3 a.m. last night and had to work at 7 in burbank I didn't give a rat's ass if it wasn't "perfect"..much like yourself...well much like you think you are anyway. Just because I haven't mastered photoshop (which proves i don't spend all my time in front of a computer like you) doesn't mean I can't out perform you in any number of areas...you seem to like to compete with me....saying you're better at making websites, you're better looking....you're better at whatever you fill your head with. But you fail to realize any of view point outside your own mind. So why don't you get the balls to speak to me personally instead of via fake LJ names or through your sister...because until then I'm a better person than you are....now how about some of this warm apple pie!
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Two thoughts:
1) If you feel the need to reply to anything someone says that you take offence to, isnt it being a little self absorbed to bash someone (as well as air personal infomation about his family members), while at the same time deleting the posts you are referring to? If you are man enough to attack somone, you should be man enough to let it be known what they said.
2) As someone who only sees your LJ via frineds pages, and dont knwo you at all, I can only say from the outside, reading your posts, I dont buy anything you say either. I can literally start reading one of your posts, and could finish writing it myself because its so predictible, To belive you, you are hte hottest , most sought after man alive, who is worshiped by all, showered with gifts, offered every job imaginable etc. BTW you do know that in Los Angeles, EVERYONE is an actor. Getting a job as an extra isnt shit..its 75$ to stand around all day long doing nothing and crossing the street on cue. "Interviews for reality shows"??? Um..HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF PPL DO THIS..thats why they are called open casting calls. If Cindy Brady and Swayze are your 'brushes wiht greatness" you are hanging out in the wrong part of LA. Go to the mall you wil see them all there.
You are a skinny twink who has so little self esteem, you strip at fag bars for attention and god only knows what else. It honestly sounds like you have a genuine heart, but are trying so hard to make people see you in a certain way. You might wanna spend more time learning to like yourself and not so much time trying to make everyone else like you.
Hopefully you understand that few if any people from "back home" are going to buy this story that you actulaly moved to LA or intended to stay there. Its all too predictible
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You obviously felt the desire to post this HUGE comment in my journal because you must read every thing I saw...since you know all that I do which is bullshit since I don't get on LJ to write all about my life.
1) people back home know I moved to LA. Some of the people that read my LJ have seen me out and about. Why in hell would I sale all my furniture, get in my car and drive 32 hours to LA NOT to move here. I had a great job, good friends, and nice location to live. But my family is sick and I am human. I feel for them and want to be near them. So take me to the stake and burn me like the witch that I must be for trying to live my life. Attack me as you must to feel better about yourself. I've done none of that. I'm just relaying my life on MY livejournal...if you walk into it, tough shit. You don't have to read what I say, you don't have to agree with what I say.
2) I love that you can conclude things about who I am without ever meeting me. This is the internet for God's sake! We can be anyone we want on here. The fact that you think I deleted the post by the other person, in which I DID NOT, shows just how unreliable your information is. You THOUHGT and ASSUMED i deleted the post...false....therefore how am I to believe or anyone to believe anything else you just said when you dont even have the facts right from the beginning?
3) You are entitled to your opinions. I am not here to change your mind. But obviously I would disagree with what you say as your attacks towards me. I love my life. And the things that I said about eing in LA and meeting people and getting work, etc....these things happened for me in 2 short months....they are a spring board to better things to come. Honestly, do you fucking think that in 2 mos. I would be posting OMG WELL LIKE I"M FAMOUS NOW AND IT ONLY TOOK 2 MOS. please...i started at where everyone else did, made some connections, met some great people. And gawd the reality tv show..honey...you need to get the FACTS. I was not trying out for the reality show...I was interviewed for a JOB.....now let's see...do they really interview thousands of people for ONE job on a reality tv show? again, get your facts first. Reality TV show job...NOT cast member. So throw your punches, they all out being done through assumptions. Opening casting calls...I'm not fucking stupid. I have a degree in tv production if you really read my damn journal you'd know that I was here trying to get into production..keep up.
ANd for you to say no one back home is going to buy that I"m in LA...could you please let me know who all you know from "back home" that you have consulted that dont believe me...cause to my knowledge you don't know any of the people I associate with since you don't fucking know me or have met me. you even say you don't know me in your post then go on to say no one back home will believe me...that's fucking funny. Umm I don't know you but I will say no one that knows you believes you. who the fuck are you? george bush? you both seem to have a warped since of information.
so to please you I'm not going to delete your post. I never deleted the other one. who ever it was deleted it I'm sure so he could post again...cause if he left the post up I'm able to ban him which suggests someone has too much time on their hands to care so much about my life that they ignore their own.
but at any rate, I've given this too much time as it is. I big flaw of mine is that I care too much of what others think of me because I want to be a good person...but obviously I'm not going to please everyone...as you can atest to.
I have an interesting life...you can watch it if you want, but I would suggest going out and having your own.
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