confused
well, it has been a while since i have written anything and i have alot to say..me and chris almost broke up the other day here's why... we were at break and i was explaining about how in health care mrs. wilson was trying to find my heartbeat and she couldn't find it because my boobs were in the way so she like picked it up and put the stethescope under it .. heh but anyways then anne asks me again what she did and chris said she did this and lifted up anne's boob and then she put a jacket over it .. now they both say that it didnt happen but me, kellie,lynda, and garrett all saw it and i swear that it looked just like it .. but you know i really dont think chris would lie about a thing like that .. but i just can't help what i saw..and then i wrote him a letter saying why i was upset and he wrote back explaining ,of course, and then he got anne to write a letter also (like that would help) and then i wrote him a letter saying that it seems like he likes anne more than he likes me because at school he is on her more than he is one me and that ain't right (haha kira) i told him he could just go date anne , you know since they have already dated) and he responded with "well then i guess we are over" and he said " do you think i would want to date someone who went out with me for a week and then broke up with me for no apparent reason" heh yeah that makes me feel great!! so he would want to date anne if they hadn't gone out previously .. .. .. but after school was over we talked , and we didnt break up , but now i dont know if i should be with him any longer... i kinda feel like he doesn't love me like he used to anymore.. i duno maybe when just need a break (yes lauren a break) i dont know i am just really confused right now.....
last night this guy from work chasen asked me to him a ride home because he didnt want his step-dad to come and pick him up because his step-dad threatens to beat him up all the time and has beaten him before .. he was really angry so we stayed at dairy queen for just a few minuetes so that he wouldn't go home and hit his step-dad... i still felt horrible about it , so i made him promise me that he wouldn't hit him no matter what, and i told him to call me if he could so that i would know how he is ... he never called , and now i am worried about what happened