oh! by the way!
how come lj wont let me login to create a new background or user pics, but let's me update?
oh. i didn't really have a lot to say i guess, just that life is interesting
people suck
egotisical people more
as do decisions that don't go away
the one i had to make the begining of the year is back again
only this time, the anxiety attack wasn't as bad
still complete with tears
i miss my dad
i miss what we could have had more
i love my friends
the real ones
who look out for me
and the funny ones
who thought they didn't care...but after that convo..??
and those who think i have boys (i wish!)
and those who know i deserve really good ones, the same ones who had crushes on me for themselves....always the ones who seem to know what you deserve...cuz they wanna give it to you.
wow, i've been in those shoes.
same with ones who hear songs by aaron neville...everybody plays the fool...and send it to you because it reminds you of them
and those who see the things you stopped letting yourself see because "reality" was more important
when you look at those who see those things, they have the good lives. the ones who tell you ur wrong and need to stop...are alone, helpless, not themselves, and don't really know much.
they side with the one who doesn't know what it is to love
who's too afraid to open up
who denies when they do
i found a really good journal that i wrote in lavins class
about a boy who didn't think of her while he did everything, including take someone else
but all the while, ached for her.
hm.
and i should really write a film. i think i'll email warner brothers, they would like this tragedy called my life
sometimes it's a good life though!
i won't lie!
i'm just recovering from an anxt. attack! and that's all!
but i know i'm okay...no matter what.
lovelovelovelovelovelovelove
oh. i didn't really have a lot to say i guess, just that life is interesting
people suck
egotisical people more
as do decisions that don't go away
the one i had to make the begining of the year is back again
only this time, the anxiety attack wasn't as bad
still complete with tears
i miss my dad
i miss what we could have had more
i love my friends
the real ones
who look out for me
and the funny ones
who thought they didn't care...but after that convo..??
and those who think i have boys (i wish!)
and those who know i deserve really good ones, the same ones who had crushes on me for themselves....always the ones who seem to know what you deserve...cuz they wanna give it to you.
wow, i've been in those shoes.
same with ones who hear songs by aaron neville...everybody plays the fool...and send it to you because it reminds you of them
and those who see the things you stopped letting yourself see because "reality" was more important
when you look at those who see those things, they have the good lives. the ones who tell you ur wrong and need to stop...are alone, helpless, not themselves, and don't really know much.
they side with the one who doesn't know what it is to love
who's too afraid to open up
who denies when they do
i found a really good journal that i wrote in lavins class
about a boy who didn't think of her while he did everything, including take someone else
but all the while, ached for her.
hm.
and i should really write a film. i think i'll email warner brothers, they would like this tragedy called my life
sometimes it's a good life though!
i won't lie!
i'm just recovering from an anxt. attack! and that's all!
but i know i'm okay...no matter what.
lovelovelovelovelovelovelove