self mutillation
i have like 4000 pounds to lose. ive decided that im going to start eating only soup for dinner, french onion soup. im not drinking soda anymore. if i dont go to the gym right after class i dont go at all, so i fucking have to.
i sit on the computer for hours a day staring at these fucking anorexic bitches. i dont know why i do it. it just pisses me off and then i disgust myself more and more. why cant i just starve myself like they do, fuck, i wish i wasnt hungry. i hate all these stupid cunts in playboy. im sick of reading their bios. "omg ive like never worked out a day in my life, isnt that like so weird". i cant even eat one fucking french fry without gaining 20 pounds. FUCK YOU WHORE. i hate you.
how aweful it must be for beautiful people. what a terrible and horrible life they must have. i would just be so sad and depressed if guys were falling all over me. wouldnt it be terrible to be skinny and hot and envied?
i hate life right now and i shouldnt. im turning into weird erin again.
i think i should take off the crest white strips now, my mouth is burning, i think its been an hour. i forgot. hmm kevins home. why????????????
i sit on the computer for hours a day staring at these fucking anorexic bitches. i dont know why i do it. it just pisses me off and then i disgust myself more and more. why cant i just starve myself like they do, fuck, i wish i wasnt hungry. i hate all these stupid cunts in playboy. im sick of reading their bios. "omg ive like never worked out a day in my life, isnt that like so weird". i cant even eat one fucking french fry without gaining 20 pounds. FUCK YOU WHORE. i hate you.
how aweful it must be for beautiful people. what a terrible and horrible life they must have. i would just be so sad and depressed if guys were falling all over me. wouldnt it be terrible to be skinny and hot and envied?
i hate life right now and i shouldnt. im turning into weird erin again.
i think i should take off the crest white strips now, my mouth is burning, i think its been an hour. i forgot. hmm kevins home. why????????????