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oh, and i had a birthday a month ago. 23. when i was like 12, i envisioned myself being a real "adult" at 23. job. husband. house. nice car. a kid on the way. ha.
i am subbing in high school tomorrow for my first time. it's actually for a teacher who used to teach at my high school. i am nervous there won't be any plans, since the sub request came in tonight at like 9 pm. my biggest fear was to have no plans. but at least in high school, periods are only an hour long, so you can let kids fuck around for an hour, right? i am subbing for "credit recovery" and "girls' PE". i didn't even know boys' and girls' PE existed until i started getting sub calls. when i was in school, it was all mixed together. i am hoping it's like circuit training or something super easy. i needed the job, since i only had 1.5 sub days this week. my goal is 3 days a week, but i will settle for 2, and will do 4 to make up for when i only get 2. so i needed to at least get 2 full days. i actually should boost it up to 4, since i no longer nanny on mondays. i have yet to exceed 4 days of subbing in one week.
i painted my bedroom and it's still growing on me. i think i need to get my shit up on the walls (after a month and a half) and keep it clean. then it will make me happy.
i survived thanksgiving. it feels nothing like christmas-time right now. being out of school has kind of put me in a state of stuck-in-time. the transition of seasons seemed so much more solid when you had semesters starting and ending, and holiday breaks to look forward to. and maybe the fact that i am in a new environment, and have other unfamiliar worries in front of me (money, rommates, house-maintenance) gves me more to think about and i am less pre-occupied with thinking about how to prepare for christmas.
oh, and joel had a bum living in his van. he found a bucket full of shit and piss in the back of his un-locked van that never moves off the corner of a busy street. hahha. that is all i know for now is that there was a bucket. i think it's hilarious.