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[part_time_lover]

I've realized latly that I am at a very strange phase in my life. I definitely feel like I'm in that place I was after middle school and at the beginning of high school. I'm just trying to find my place with everyone and everything and at the same time find and internal balance in myself. I need to pull myself together and quick. I've been slacking majorly in my classes lately. I don't know why, I've just been lacking the self-motivation to care. I need to sleep more. 4 1/2 hours a night does not constitute a good nights sleep. I wish that I had answers to all of the questions swirling through my mind. I'm really glad that I've been able to get things out to an entired unbiased person lately. It's defintely made my life a bit more sane. It makes me realize when I'm being stupid about things and when I should actually care about things. It adds some perspective I guess you could say. I'm also glad to know that I'm not entirely off the wall about things that I've been thinking and feeling lately.
So, I think I'm going to start throwing myself back into various things that I can be involved in. I applied for a job the other day, hopefully I'll hear back from them. That would make me feel a little bit better about life. I'm tired of feeling like I'm just sitting around waiting for something to happen. I just need to go make things happen. Just because one part of my life is in this strange static situation doesn't mean everything has to be. Anyway, I'm going to try and focus and get a bit of work done, I have about 6 chapters worth of text books to read. Yey!