descamisados
skipped school and now i'm sitting in the library of the town that i hid and continue to hide in since four years ago
i have many things to do in order to pass high school and graduate
there are 8 days left
i'm realizing more and more that i don't know myself
i get high and i become silent because i don't know what to do
i don't know what my place is
for awhile i felt spiritually rejuvinated, completely connected, reborn
then a man returned to my life
and everything went downhill
i regressed
now that man is in my life, but he plays a different role
and i'm happy, because i realize that i don't want to be with men
but i'm sad because i've moved further backward
now i feel all of the pain inside of me from years of damage
and i want to fix it, i want to heal
the school system destroyed me in a lot of ways
exposed me to cruelty that i ended up getting at home too
i miss my innocence
i was forced to go to speech for six years
they took away my gentle lisp
and made me into someone i don't know
i don't know my voice
the sounds that come out are not me
i am sad because of this
but what do i do now?
i've been driving around, walking around, sitting around
trying to speak
what am i?
filled with pain...
i need to release it
i'm trying to release it
but i need something more
i'm not doing something right
how do i take away this pain?
spring is here and everything blooms more and more each day
i want to bloom like the sweet smelling flowers
barefeet
i think that i should only surround myself with women and animals for a very long time
men hurt me
i lose myself
unsure
unsure
sunshine
rain, please wash away my pain