Exaustion
My life is made of mad dashes to and from activities, screaming, crashing, dodging guilt and knowing that the things I do to keep myself alive will make my life miserable. I am so tired.
I'm pretty sure the only beautiful part of my life is the woman I am not allowed to speak to in front of the girls. And Grevling and Jelly Bean.
ZigZag quit yesterday. That is the third friend I have lost this summer. I'm so completely done, so exausted with this, with the rudeness and cruelty and cattiness of the admin and the gossip between the other staff.
My girls are half brain dead and it makes me look really bad even though everyone knows that they are. I wish I could have had the Wranglers two weeks, they were just so much better equipped to ride and to be at camp this long.
One of my girls is going home early today and it feels like my fault.
I want to go home, take a bath, watch a lesbian movie and go to sleep next to my girlfriend. And wake up next to her, cuddle, repeat.
Mostly I just want SPACE. I am NOT a people person. I am a women person, but not this much.
My break is over in five. Please someone save me... I cannot survive without touch.
I'm pretty sure the only beautiful part of my life is the woman I am not allowed to speak to in front of the girls. And Grevling and Jelly Bean.
ZigZag quit yesterday. That is the third friend I have lost this summer. I'm so completely done, so exausted with this, with the rudeness and cruelty and cattiness of the admin and the gossip between the other staff.
My girls are half brain dead and it makes me look really bad even though everyone knows that they are. I wish I could have had the Wranglers two weeks, they were just so much better equipped to ride and to be at camp this long.
One of my girls is going home early today and it feels like my fault.
I want to go home, take a bath, watch a lesbian movie and go to sleep next to my girlfriend. And wake up next to her, cuddle, repeat.
Mostly I just want SPACE. I am NOT a people person. I am a women person, but not this much.
My break is over in five. Please someone save me... I cannot survive without touch.