im sick
Im pure tee sick to my stomache.. its all nerves.
I went to class this morning for the first time in two weeks. (save one that i showed up to and it was cancelled)
I got there this morning and found that we had a written exam test. I walked out of the class, the professor followed me and is going to allow me to take it this afternoon. When I was walking back to the car I just started crying.
I know its just nerves with all this jason drama and me finishing school ( or lack of finishing school). Its just getting to me.
I feel quite depressed again.
---------------what hes writing to me.. back and forth.. blah-------------
him this mornigng)i don't need any of that, please don't take your heart away from me.......i need you and only you...you make me want to be a better person and you make me smile.i love you
me last night )-go get drunk im sure it will solve everything.. or snort a little coke..
fuck a couple strippers..
that all makes it go away right?
You just lost someone that could have loved you and treated you good for a long damn time...
someone who listens to you and forgives you...
..if you ever find another one dont fuck it up\
> --- On Thu 04/07, jason < bluereef@excite.com > wrote:
From: jason [mailto: bluereef@excite.com]
To: starfly77@excite.com
Date: Thu, 7 Apr 2005 22:41:27 -0400 (EDT)
Subject: RE: @^#*^%
>no you are not a bitch, and i fucked up by telling you i went to work, when i called in. i make myself sick by fucking things up.....i love you becka, and i miss you, but what do i do.......nothing, because you hate me.please talk to me,,i love you
--- On Thu 04/07, starfly77@excite.com < starfly77@excite.com > wrote:
From: starfly77@excite.com
To: bluereef@excite.com
Date: Thu, 7 Apr 2005 18:59:28 -0400 (EDT
I wish you hadn't gone fucking crazy either.
But your nothing but a fucking liar.
If you werent so damn violent and dishonest then the rest of your qualities are great!
My stomache hurts because of all this, but I'm not putting up with it.
Be a better person. Grow up.
But what do I know I'm just a bitch.. right?
--- On Thu 04/07, jason < bluereef@excite.com > wrote:
From: jason [mailto: bluereef@excite.com]
To: starfly77@excite.com
Date: Thu, 7 Apr
-
i want to by back yesterday, and see that smile on your face while we were together in bed. i want you so bad and i know that i can't have you. i apologize for my actions. i know that's not good enough. i do love you and i do want to start something with you. do you remember our conversation? becka, i do love you and i wish that you would see that. i know you don't think that i do. and i am sorry for not going to the beach. i didn't have enough money until today. i know that you were upset about that. please let me love you, let me have your heart. i am not complete without you. i want to talk to you, but until then i am heartbroken..it's my fault
I went to class this morning for the first time in two weeks. (save one that i showed up to and it was cancelled)
I got there this morning and found that we had a written exam test. I walked out of the class, the professor followed me and is going to allow me to take it this afternoon. When I was walking back to the car I just started crying.
I know its just nerves with all this jason drama and me finishing school ( or lack of finishing school). Its just getting to me.
I feel quite depressed again.
---------------what hes writing to me.. back and forth.. blah-------------
him this mornigng)i don't need any of that, please don't take your heart away from me.......i need you and only you...you make me want to be a better person and you make me smile.i love you
me last night )-go get drunk im sure it will solve everything.. or snort a little coke..
fuck a couple strippers..
that all makes it go away right?
You just lost someone that could have loved you and treated you good for a long damn time...
someone who listens to you and forgives you...
..if you ever find another one dont fuck it up\
> --- On Thu 04/07, jason < bluereef@excite.com > wrote:
From: jason [mailto: bluereef@excite.com]
To: starfly77@excite.com
Date: Thu, 7 Apr 2005 22:41:27 -0400 (EDT)
Subject: RE: @^#*^%
>no you are not a bitch, and i fucked up by telling you i went to work, when i called in. i make myself sick by fucking things up.....i love you becka, and i miss you, but what do i do.......nothing, because you hate me.please talk to me,,i love you
--- On Thu 04/07, starfly77@excite.com < starfly77@excite.com > wrote:
From: starfly77@excite.com
To: bluereef@excite.com
Date: Thu, 7 Apr 2005 18:59:28 -0400 (EDT
I wish you hadn't gone fucking crazy either.
But your nothing but a fucking liar.
If you werent so damn violent and dishonest then the rest of your qualities are great!
My stomache hurts because of all this, but I'm not putting up with it.
Be a better person. Grow up.
But what do I know I'm just a bitch.. right?
--- On Thu 04/07, jason < bluereef@excite.com > wrote:
From: jason [mailto: bluereef@excite.com]
To: starfly77@excite.com
Date: Thu, 7 Apr
-
i want to by back yesterday, and see that smile on your face while we were together in bed. i want you so bad and i know that i can't have you. i apologize for my actions. i know that's not good enough. i do love you and i do want to start something with you. do you remember our conversation? becka, i do love you and i wish that you would see that. i know you don't think that i do. and i am sorry for not going to the beach. i didn't have enough money until today. i know that you were upset about that. please let me love you, let me have your heart. i am not complete without you. i want to talk to you, but until then i am heartbroken..it's my fault