letters lately... or just words.. what do they add up to?
i'm glad we hung out last night, no worries, no b.s., no nothing just us. there's nothing better than going to sleep with you and being woke by you dreaming. and i am sure that there is nothing better than waking up with some lovin'!!!!!!!!!!!maybe waking up on a tropical island with some beeka love, but sometimes you can't have it all. it's just fine being in your arms. have fun today baby in whatever you do, and remember i do care for you and heart you. i want to show you how true this is.....until then,
yours,
monsoon-j
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this place has sucked me dry of my will my reason and it can go to hell!!! i will not let this place suck out my reason for living or my dreams. you are the only person that seems to understand that. i feel like picking up and leaving, seeing things i have never seen before. things like the island od hawaii, being a hand on a boat in the carribean(sp?), traveling mexico........living while i am young. i am not a person who can be tied down to a 9 to 5 at this point, i'm much to young to feel this damn old. you know? my mom thinks i should go to grad
school or join officers school in the military. all that stuff was good for them, but it's not me. i am so lucky to have a soul who understands those things and who will listen to me. i think this is the most i have opened up to you about things in a while. your poem was beautiful and it has so much meaning to me. i am upset right now because my family is falling apart at the seams and there is nothing i can do about it. no one wants to believe in eachother anymore, no one believes in dreams anymore. i feel alone in this world. i miss my dad, he was the glue for us and belived in our dreams whatever they were. i'm sorry but i have to vent. i'm just ready to go away and find what it is i'm looking for. maybe one day we could meet in a tiki bar somewhere, where you can't tell where the ocean ends & the sky begins.
until then becka i am yours.....your are more than a beautiful person you are a kind giving soul that will go on forever....smile you are sand angel...............jsc
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just a bottle of rum should make me feel good, make me feel the way that i
think i should, and i've thought about her for a long long time, somehow i can't get her off my mind, cause when she looked at me and when saw her last, she held up her drink and toasted with a laugh, she said " hey boy it'll be alright you'll forget about tomorrow night", and now i'm here with a song or two, but thinking of her is what i'll do, so i lay down my glass and close my eyes and remember her on that thursday night, how she looked at me across the moonlight, and how the waves hit our feet and how there was no end in sight, and we danced to a buffet song that she only knew, i felt free as a pirate in the wild blue, so i pick up my glass and i hold it up high, get lost somewhere between the sand and the sky, and i say.....this one's for you
jsc
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if i was a pirate what would i do? would i rape, pillage ,and plunder or steal gold for you. would my vessel be elaborate or would it be meek? would my mates be burly or tired and weak? would i dock each day to find malevolence and steal kisses, or would i be a gentleman and sail back to my misses? oh who am i kidding for we know not what to do, we sail these seas for our glory,and not for you, so yo ho ho and a bottle of rum, prepare to be boarded, because here we come!!!!!!!!
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you are a sand angel, and i am a tattered sand dollar that finds you within his broken shell........i'm a jerk that needs to be kicked in the nuts 10 times a day, remember....i heart you and miss you even though i held you this morning.good night beeka....tallywacker
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you have given me something that no one else has, a true emotion that i want to return. you have a passion that i desire, a lust for life that is nearly close to perfect. you make me happy by being you and i will return that 10 fold. beeka you are wonderful, and i adore you in everything you do and everything you are!!!!!!!!! write back, i will check later when i get to work..........i do love you , me
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my baby is the most desired wave on the ocean, she is the wind that blows across you when the heat is unbearable, she is that and so much more, and with all that said i am a better soul by knowing her and what she is...you rock baby girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!