insomnia[/kind-of-withdrawl]-tweaking?
I'm kind of really angry right now, and in the mood to waste time (because even though it's a long weekend, it's been established that I still don't have enough time to finish the work that I have to do, even without sleeping [and sleep hasn't happened in days, as usual])...so I'm going to update.
I feel like I'm having a heart attack or something ughhh, but anyways...
so yeah! Let's see...while being a good jewish member of the Parnes family last night, I realized that things could be worse. Like when my cousin (granted, she's 7, but whatever the point still holds true) said how she worked really hard on a test and did well on it, my grandmother responds "well, of course! what else would we expect?" and everyone else in the room at that time was like "wtf you don't say that!" and like when my aunt/uncle was showing off how my cousin won an award for having the best senior thesis in his year at columbia, the grandparents have a similar response and my father had to deal with that and he's not so bad on me (or bad on me at all really) so yeah. wait there was a point
and then Loomis didn't seem so bad after my other cousin was talking about some bullshit he has to do at horace mann (and I've heard other things about that school anyway)...not that I think loomis itself is bad, but I don't know.
I feel like I'm having a fucking heart attack! But I already said that. I feel like I'm on speed but only the bad feelings, not the being able to concentrate ones because then I could actually get my work done! I hope I don't die. All I want is just to relax mehh but I am really really angry and feeling betrayed (as usual, what is up with that?) and that's not helping the situation because I'm just like...like falling into a mania of sorts or something, which kind of sucks for you because I might just keep typing and typing faster and faster forever! but I think I'll stop. and put this under an lj cut because this entry totally went off in like a million different directions while staying on one. what??
hmm and in the boredom I just decided to make a new user picture. I'm not sure if I like it, but I like the original picture but it looks kind of crappy cropped because she's holding balloons in the other hand and you can't see that, but whatever, kate moss is hot nevertheless even though she's like 30 something now
edit: I just decided to make this friends-only because I sound like a freaking idiot wait nevermind, I'm making this public again because really, who gives a shit?