There are nights...

[parmonster]

There are nights when I fall to sleep before my head hits the pillow.
There are nights when my cats curl up next to me and purr me to slumber.
There are nights when I'm being held, little spoon, safe in someone's arms.
There are nights when life is perfect, and peaceful, and right.

Then there's nights like this one.

Because there are nights when I can't silence the noise.
There are nights when the seconds won't stop passing.
There are nights when my head is full, and my tummy's empty.
There are nights when all my fears and insecurities seem manifest.

There are nights of terrifying darkness.

There are nights when a scream is trapped in my throat.
There are nights when I can't stop crying.
There are nights when I wish I could start.
There are nights when I need to be told everything is alright.

There are nights where the morning never seems to come.