Blind

[parmonie]

I was blind.
That's all I've ever been.
Blind to what I should have seen.
To what you were doing.
I would have felt bad if I started something
With someone else because
I know he would be a
REBOUND
From you.
What we were?
There never was anything to be.
We were just two people.
One grieving,
One hopeful of
What could happen.
But I’m blind.
I should have known
From the moment you
Said those words.
I can’t quit it.
I can’t quit this,
Both for my health and mental well being.
I can’t figure out what this is.
What anything is.
All I asked for was a second chance,
But you can’t because of
HER.
HER.
It’s not what I thought it could ever be.
What I wanted it to become.
What I wanted it to be.
But it never will.
I’m just blind to everything.
Now I want to throw up
Because I have those bees in my stomach
That sting and bite
Whenever I think about you
And with every word I write.
Don’t do this again.
But you already did.