Thank God...
saturday came all too slowly. there was a pretty good amount of people, all of whom were pretty damn good. i was there for about 3 hours, reading things, singing things, and dancing things. i completely fucked up the singing, in my opinion. the acting i think i did pretty good, and the dancing was alright i guess. but i'm damn sure that the singing part was awful. so finally we were allowed to leave, and i was discouraged because i was so convinced i did terribly.
and then monday came. i was sitting in doc's office with sage and my phone rang. it was DJ. he called and told me he wanted me to come back on wednesday so he could hear me sing again. i had been given a second chance, which is exactly what i needed. those next two days went by incredibly slowly, and finally wednesday night i made my way downtown. i acted some more, danced some more, and sang some more. and this time i nailed that fucking song. it was right on. so after a while DJ called me into his office and closed the door. he told me he would love it if i would play the character of Rick, which is a pretty good part and it is the character who sings the song i had so much trouble with at first. naturally i said yes, and then he shook my hand and told me that he would see me on monday (today) for the first rehearsal. i was so fucking happy. i walked out of the room and closed the door behind me. then, when i was positive nobody could see me anymore, i ran out to my car, laughing the whole damn way because i was so incredibly happy. i really needed this.
i had been beating myself up lately because nothing was really going my way, and i manage to fuck things up alot. and then i got this. i have a much better outlook on things and i feel like i have the world by the balls. it feels like i am finally doing something right, and i'm finally getting somewhere. i know this feeling will not last forever, but right now i am enjoying the hell out of it. in an hour i will be driving downtown to the first rehearsal, where i'll be meeting the rest of the cast and hopefully making all sorts of new friends. things are finally turning around for ol' john. here's to hoping that things stay this way for a while.
and then monday came. i was sitting in doc's office with sage and my phone rang. it was DJ. he called and told me he wanted me to come back on wednesday so he could hear me sing again. i had been given a second chance, which is exactly what i needed. those next two days went by incredibly slowly, and finally wednesday night i made my way downtown. i acted some more, danced some more, and sang some more. and this time i nailed that fucking song. it was right on. so after a while DJ called me into his office and closed the door. he told me he would love it if i would play the character of Rick, which is a pretty good part and it is the character who sings the song i had so much trouble with at first. naturally i said yes, and then he shook my hand and told me that he would see me on monday (today) for the first rehearsal. i was so fucking happy. i walked out of the room and closed the door behind me. then, when i was positive nobody could see me anymore, i ran out to my car, laughing the whole damn way because i was so incredibly happy. i really needed this.
i had been beating myself up lately because nothing was really going my way, and i manage to fuck things up alot. and then i got this. i have a much better outlook on things and i feel like i have the world by the balls. it feels like i am finally doing something right, and i'm finally getting somewhere. i know this feeling will not last forever, but right now i am enjoying the hell out of it. in an hour i will be driving downtown to the first rehearsal, where i'll be meeting the rest of the cast and hopefully making all sorts of new friends. things are finally turning around for ol' john. here's to hoping that things stay this way for a while.