i did NOT expect to be where i am right now last year
sooo basically life is a damn roller coaster. never a dull moment. just when i thought hope was gone and everything i had done was in vain, hope just poofs outta thin air and tells me that nothing is over, and that things are gonna get better with time and patience, and that good ol' John Martin determination. for one of the few times in my life, i know exactly what i need to do, and i'm not afraid at all. even though i have a million different responsibilities in my life right now and a million different things going against me, all of that comes to a screeching halt when i think about her and what good things may come. so there's been yelling and fighting and a broken heart every day for a week, but at the end of it all i am sitting here after the one day that made the whole week worth it. nothing good comes easy. but the harder things are, the better the reward.
i was this ---> () close to giving up, and then the shitstorm came to a sudden end and it started raining chocolate bubblegum and blue raspberry kool-aid. i really suck at metaphors. was that even a metaphor?
i don't know what tomorrow will bring me, or any day after that. and i don't know how many more times my heart will be broken. but i know for certain that i am willing to give all that i have, because to me it is the most important thing i can do. she's worth it.