A month ago
after one fucking month i updated this shit i still dont have a car or anything good going on in my fucking life i gotten mad trashed latley 2 fridays ago i was so fucked up i threw up and i did so last friday nite for dan bday. i was looking at my ALBERT LEONARD 1996 (yes i did go to middle school im not a dinosaur ) year book and it bought back alot memories and shit back then i was 14 and i was fearless i felt like i could do whatever i wanted and i had hope for the future but now im washed up i been keeping a low profile and shit becuase i feel burned out i remeber people i wont mention names say that karma was gonna get me and in 2000 my english teacher mrs evans said that the game will end for me soon and they are right i used to say that i was above karma that i was too slick to get my come uppence but guess what i did i paid and i fell down hard. This is not a fucking sympathy or a suicide attempt its just how i feel and shit at this moment. even though i paid i cant change my ways im a bad apple and noone will ever trust me and my credibility is shot. i have a bad rep and shit but that will not stop me from achieveing what i want in life and ill fight till the end. the one positive thing is that i lost 12 since i got back from florida i stopped doing atkins i just do the special k diet now. hopefully i get a car soon and the job valet parking if not then there will be hell to pay thats all for now adios