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Oct 13, 2005 21:55

I don't know if it's all this talk about adoption lately but for the past couple of days I've been doing search after search for my biological mother. I don't know if I really want to meet her if it's just the whole unknown thing that is intriguing to me. Do I want to or do I not want to?

I found the attorney's website who did the adoption and emailed him. I am pretty sure I'll get a response from him. Just a few months ago he called my grandparents to see how the family is so I know he still remembers us. Plus, I was his first adoption case. You don't forget something that powerful. When I went to go see him when I was 16, he said after ten years they destroy the files but I'm hoping with all I have he can give me any information he can from his memory.

Next, I'm writing the doctor for the second time, who talked my biological mother out of the abortion and pretty much saved my life. I saw him when I was sixteen as well but what did I know then? He asked me if I had any questions and I said "no". I think I was just stunned by the whole thing because Lord knows I had a million. I wrote him before with out a response. Hopefully I get one this time.

This might actually happen. :/ Am I ready?

One thing that annoys me on my search is that of course I don't have my original birth certificate. I have an amended one. The only information on it is my parents names and the county I was born in. No time, no weight, no nothing. All that is on the original which in about 47 states an adoptee will never see. It's amazingly stupid the laws about adoption records. I think when you turn 18 and you want them then they should give them to you. Oh no....that's too easy and nice. If you want them then there's an inital fee of $150. $150 I don't have mind you. That's not even calculating other fees. And you won't get your original birth certificate or even a copy of the original.

Don't care of the name but this http://www.bastards.org/ is a good site to go to.

My stomach is doing flips. It could be the fish oil pills I'm taking for my cholesterol now but hopefully it's flipping from the anticipation of what might become.
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