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Just as a note... you are never too old or accomplished for your parent(s) to make you feel worthless... they will manage it somehow.
I graduated in the Top 10 of my class with a 4.34 GPA with just one AP class and I had a 1320 SAT score. I've been smart all my life and the perfect child. I mean really, what more do you want than a kid that plays music, participates in nerdy activities, comes home earlier than asked every time, and never brought home boys? Now I go to a top University and I can still be reduced to tears by the insinuation that I am not good enough for them.
I'm sorry that I've almost got a better education than you do Dad, and I'm sorry that I didn't have it rough growing up. but that doesn't give you the right to make me feel like I've never done anything in my life when I've done nothing but exactly what you and Mom have wanted me to, from making good grades ("Make them better next time") and getting in the the school I wanted to go to even when you thought I couldn't do that either. It hurts when I never get to hear that you are proud of me that I have finished my first year at college successfully and then at dinner hear that you don't even think that I can get a simple job that requires nothing but a lack of a criminal background? How many low blows are going to be dealt before I start dealing them back? Or would I even be able to deal them back since I am in word and deed the perfect child and I couldn't bear to say anything back because I can't even stand to yell or be yelled at.
I just want another life sometimes and I'm sorry that someone out there would rather have my life than theirs because I'd be glad to share, maybe my parents would appreciate your efforts more than mine, not that that would take much.
I wish I had been a rebellious teenager... instead of being home most weekends and coming home straight after school or work. Maybe they would appreciate my goodness if they could hold it up next to badness for comparison.
Oh well. Going to go cry some more.
I graduated in the Top 10 of my class with a 4.34 GPA with just one AP class and I had a 1320 SAT score. I've been smart all my life and the perfect child. I mean really, what more do you want than a kid that plays music, participates in nerdy activities, comes home earlier than asked every time, and never brought home boys? Now I go to a top University and I can still be reduced to tears by the insinuation that I am not good enough for them.
I'm sorry that I've almost got a better education than you do Dad, and I'm sorry that I didn't have it rough growing up. but that doesn't give you the right to make me feel like I've never done anything in my life when I've done nothing but exactly what you and Mom have wanted me to, from making good grades ("Make them better next time") and getting in the the school I wanted to go to even when you thought I couldn't do that either. It hurts when I never get to hear that you are proud of me that I have finished my first year at college successfully and then at dinner hear that you don't even think that I can get a simple job that requires nothing but a lack of a criminal background? How many low blows are going to be dealt before I start dealing them back? Or would I even be able to deal them back since I am in word and deed the perfect child and I couldn't bear to say anything back because I can't even stand to yell or be yelled at.
I just want another life sometimes and I'm sorry that someone out there would rather have my life than theirs because I'd be glad to share, maybe my parents would appreciate your efforts more than mine, not that that would take much.
I wish I had been a rebellious teenager... instead of being home most weekends and coming home straight after school or work. Maybe they would appreciate my goodness if they could hold it up next to badness for comparison.
Oh well. Going to go cry some more.