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So my mom told Lainey
She had just figured out the eventing schedule for this season for me.
After my mom told her she said things like
"Well you know you can't buy a house now"
and " It was pretty pointless for her to buy a new saddle"
When I got to the barn she just avoided me completely.
Our lesson was awkward
I really can't wait to leave.
I dread going there now
I think that the only thing that I can be happy about is that I wont have to deal with chris anymore
I can't wait to tell her.
I'm supposed to have a months notice before I leave
she's away though until like a week from now.
I've been taking care of her horses
I dont understand how people can treat their animals like that.
Her young horse Music is extremely face shy and wont let me kiss his nose.
Every time he'd give her a mean look she'll punch him in the mouth.
Her other horse Sammy is the biggest brat I've ever had to deal with
Talk about favorites
She gave Sammy all of Music's treats that her mother Maralyn got him for Christmas.
Im hoping to get them a little straightned out by the time she comes back.
I love cats
I never thought of myself as a cat person until just recently.
They used to always give me the impression that they were linked with old widowed or divorced ladies who had like 10 of them at a time.
But I've come to realize that a cats love it so unconditional
Like a dog is generally happy to be around everyone
They show love to whoever pets them or feeds them
Cats on the other hand, I have noticed to be very loving to one or two people and stick with them
My cat Orange is one of my best friends
Im mean not in like an "I stay home and play with my cats on a friday night" sort of thing
But I love to fall asleep to his purring
and I love to lay on the floor and play and pet him.
That kind of friendship.
I don't know how I came up with that but I guess I just am feeling a lack of friendship.
I hate when someone disobeys your trust and then comes back
they want to forget it ever happened
well do I look like an idiot?
I really hope not
But I am the kind of person that keeps saying its fine and takes them back
But for one person in Particular
I am trying very hard to stay away
she has betrayed my trust time and time again
I feel I should keep my distance
On other news, Missy wants me to go on a date with one of her friends
I dont know why but the thought makes me really uncomfortable
I've been fretting over it a lot and I think I've come to a sensible conclusion for my feelings
I am the kind of person who doesn't want or need a guy in her life.
I generally think of couples as stupid and nieve
But it's when I like a guy that I want a relationship.
So I have liked someone for a long time,
First I liked his band.
They were and are really good.
And I saw him all the time in the halls at school
Teresa liked him for a while and didn't stop talking about him
So I developed a crush and started talking to him
Very slowly but he at least knows who I am
Im stuck in a rut however because everytime I look at the kid I go blank
I am an extemely shy person and scared of rejection
Plus it doesn't help that there are girls all over him at their shows and like every girl likes him
How am I supposed to contend?
So anyway, off topic ( And I have never talkedb about my feelings like this so this is a little weird for me but I am sick of pondering over this)
So this other guy seems nice but I dont want him,
I dont want anyone besides this mystery person
Missy I think is mistaking it for me wanting a relationship with anyone but being hung up on this guy
But it really is the fact that I actually dont want a relationship but this guy that I like seems really nice and I would want one if he asked me.
I am a ritard.
But it was good to get this out
Im pretty tired now
I think I'm going to go watch some old video tapes from New York . . . .
Yours till Spring Breaks
Alex
She had just figured out the eventing schedule for this season for me.
After my mom told her she said things like
"Well you know you can't buy a house now"
and " It was pretty pointless for her to buy a new saddle"
When I got to the barn she just avoided me completely.
Our lesson was awkward
I really can't wait to leave.
I dread going there now
I think that the only thing that I can be happy about is that I wont have to deal with chris anymore
I can't wait to tell her.
I'm supposed to have a months notice before I leave
she's away though until like a week from now.
I've been taking care of her horses
I dont understand how people can treat their animals like that.
Her young horse Music is extremely face shy and wont let me kiss his nose.
Every time he'd give her a mean look she'll punch him in the mouth.
Her other horse Sammy is the biggest brat I've ever had to deal with
Talk about favorites
She gave Sammy all of Music's treats that her mother Maralyn got him for Christmas.
Im hoping to get them a little straightned out by the time she comes back.
I love cats
I never thought of myself as a cat person until just recently.
They used to always give me the impression that they were linked with old widowed or divorced ladies who had like 10 of them at a time.
But I've come to realize that a cats love it so unconditional
Like a dog is generally happy to be around everyone
They show love to whoever pets them or feeds them
Cats on the other hand, I have noticed to be very loving to one or two people and stick with them
My cat Orange is one of my best friends
Im mean not in like an "I stay home and play with my cats on a friday night" sort of thing
But I love to fall asleep to his purring
and I love to lay on the floor and play and pet him.
That kind of friendship.
I don't know how I came up with that but I guess I just am feeling a lack of friendship.
I hate when someone disobeys your trust and then comes back
they want to forget it ever happened
well do I look like an idiot?
I really hope not
But I am the kind of person that keeps saying its fine and takes them back
But for one person in Particular
I am trying very hard to stay away
she has betrayed my trust time and time again
I feel I should keep my distance
On other news, Missy wants me to go on a date with one of her friends
I dont know why but the thought makes me really uncomfortable
I've been fretting over it a lot and I think I've come to a sensible conclusion for my feelings
I am the kind of person who doesn't want or need a guy in her life.
I generally think of couples as stupid and nieve
But it's when I like a guy that I want a relationship.
So I have liked someone for a long time,
First I liked his band.
They were and are really good.
And I saw him all the time in the halls at school
Teresa liked him for a while and didn't stop talking about him
So I developed a crush and started talking to him
Very slowly but he at least knows who I am
Im stuck in a rut however because everytime I look at the kid I go blank
I am an extemely shy person and scared of rejection
Plus it doesn't help that there are girls all over him at their shows and like every girl likes him
How am I supposed to contend?
So anyway, off topic ( And I have never talkedb about my feelings like this so this is a little weird for me but I am sick of pondering over this)
So this other guy seems nice but I dont want him,
I dont want anyone besides this mystery person
Missy I think is mistaking it for me wanting a relationship with anyone but being hung up on this guy
But it really is the fact that I actually dont want a relationship but this guy that I like seems really nice and I would want one if he asked me.
I am a ritard.
But it was good to get this out
Im pretty tired now
I think I'm going to go watch some old video tapes from New York . . . .
Yours till Spring Breaks
Alex