I just realized this one can be read in 2 ways. When I was writing this I was thinking of something else entirely, but that could possibly be because I need a reality check at times. My poem ofcourse is meant to tell Eric in the story something else entirely.
April 17 marks something else in this life for the rest of us. What a day Eric Hyung, eh? What a day. It makes me feel really sad and happy at the same time and even while I sleep, my mind feels so confused, worried and depressed to the point that I cannot complete a 5 hour long nap. This is worst than when I was heartbroken in real life lol. At least then I could sleep because I was tired. This is worst.
We will definitely get over it for sure. But what a ride this was. We let go of our fangirl self through the years little by little I guess. But I hope we never fully let go of it. Even if our lives do change.
Do post the other one. I'd still want to read it. But take your time Meg. Out of everyone (and sorry to the other Eric stans but you're the only one who matters to me and Nerie), you're the one who's severely affected by this. I can wait :) ♥
Ibang klase nga talaga eh. Kahit ako di ko maexplain. Ang sama ng pakiramdam ko para akong may sakit, minsan parang high, minsan parang naiiyak, ang bigat ng dibdib, parang ayoko na gusto pa... hahaha, grabe isa pa lang to ah. Hay Hyung.
And regarding the poem, ang dating is very heartbreaking for the both of us. Yung hindi nabigyan ng chance kaming dalawa to get to know each other. Yung kung meron lang sana. Na baka pwede sana. HUHUHUHU. AYOKO NA.
Not going to lie, IBA TALAGA KAYO NI ERIC. Iba talaga. I have written couples before, and I am not saying di bagay ung ibang OM (kasi bagay naman din talaga and iba din naman) pero kayo kasi, parang, parang if nagkaron ng chance, PERFECT FIT. Kaya siguro masakit talaga sa akin isipin. Pretty sure mas masakit for you.
We'd get through this!
PS. He fits perfectly in your page. Just saw you updated the banner na. ♥
I wanna say na dahil siguro andami mo nang nasulat about us kaya ganyan yung thoughts mo. Pero pwede rin na kaya marami ka nang nasulat dahil ganun yung tingin mo? Syempre super biased ako besh. HAHAHA. Alam ko magkakasundo kami nito if nagkaron lang ng chance to meet and get to know each other. :(( AYOKO NA.
Another thing, ngayon parang naiintindihan ko na bakit may SHCJ na nagquiquit. Kasi if you have these thoughts like mine or ours about Meg and Eric, parang ang disrespectful lang. Are you writing the story? Hindi ka ba nahihirapan? Iniisip ko nga kung kaya ko pang sumulat. Baka kaya pa bago mag July 1. Pero after? Parang di ko na ma-imagine. Parang sinasampal ako ng tadhana, tumigil na raw ako at ikakasal na rin ako. :(((
Yan actually ang kinakatakot ko as a writer. Ung mawala na ung will to write kasi ganito na nangyayari. Nararamdaman ko yan every now and then eh, after nung announcement, para akong masisiraan ng bait kasi I fight it talaga. I want to finish my books and get it out. Sayang ung storyline, sayang ung feels eh. Even if you don't want to think about the real Meg & Eric, the story in itself, I think, is good enough for people to read it. Kaso eto nga, sabe ko nga, big challenge na dinrop talaga.
I know it's going to be difficult Meg, pero I hope you'd still keep on writing. Dati naisip ko when I got pregnant, etc, na it's not proper to think about Shinhwa anymore, pero kasi it's really just different with them. I hope you'd still find the will to write and read and love !Meg&Eric! kahit in fiction na lang.
Siguro at this time mahirap kasi talaga isipin with what is infront of us, pero ako kasi I believe this too will pass and we'd get through this. Mahirap pero, kaya natin to.
Madami akong sinulat kasi mas mabilis kayong magclick sa utak ko. Mas mabilis kayong isipan ng scene, kasi bagay nga talaga. Fit na fit ung personality eh. In a way nga, parang feel ko kilala ko na si Eric. Weird in some ways but whenever I watch him I know what he'd do even before he would do it.
I did know he was going to do this indenial lang ako the whole time lol. But hay.
April 17 marks something else in this life for the rest of us. What a day Eric Hyung, eh? What a day. It makes me feel really sad and happy at the same time and even while I sleep, my mind feels so confused, worried and depressed to the point that I cannot complete a 5 hour long nap. This is worst than when I was heartbroken in real life lol. At least then I could sleep because I was tired. This is worst.
We will definitely get over it for sure. But what a ride this was. We let go of our fangirl self through the years little by little I guess. But I hope we never fully let go of it. Even if our lives do change.
Do post the other one. I'd still want to read it. But take your time Meg. Out of everyone (and sorry to the other Eric stans but you're the only one who matters to me and Nerie), you're the one who's severely affected by this. I can wait :) ♥
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Yun yung mahirap dito. I can't really put into words what I feel, how I feel and why I feel this. Grabe.
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Sige aantayin ko ung post mo.
Kakamiss mag LJ no? ♥
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We'd get through this!
PS. He fits perfectly in your page. Just saw you updated the banner na. ♥
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I know it's going to be difficult Meg, pero I hope you'd still keep on writing. Dati naisip ko when I got pregnant, etc, na it's not proper to think about Shinhwa anymore, pero kasi it's really just different with them. I hope you'd still find the will to write and read and love !Meg&Eric! kahit in fiction na lang.
Siguro at this time mahirap kasi talaga isipin with what is infront of us, pero ako kasi I believe this too will pass and we'd get through this. Mahirap pero, kaya natin to.
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I did know he was going to do this indenial lang ako the whole time lol. But hay.
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