already i'm so lonesome i could die
i know i said i probably wouldn't update much, but let's face it. it's 9:50, a bug's going around, i'm real sick, and i'm real stressed about school.
so, really. what am i going to do about school.
i think, if i really want to do good. i won't even have time for my friends. i'll just be so consumed in my work. i can do it, i know i can. but, it's like. i don't even know anymore. will i have time to have fun and make this year enjoyable? sometime's for me it's all or nothing. it's been bothering me more than anything.
and plus- i still have my headaches, it's been 4 years.
sara knows what i'm talking about. sometimes they get real bad. what if i feel like giving up when i'm doing really good? what if it's like, during a period of time when i'm doing really good, i just feel like "fuck it." and i give up. i do that a lot. i just give up. i know it gets to a point where i can't do it.
why am i bitching in my journal?
so, really. what am i going to do about school.
i think, if i really want to do good. i won't even have time for my friends. i'll just be so consumed in my work. i can do it, i know i can. but, it's like. i don't even know anymore. will i have time to have fun and make this year enjoyable? sometime's for me it's all or nothing. it's been bothering me more than anything.
and plus- i still have my headaches, it's been 4 years.
sara knows what i'm talking about. sometimes they get real bad. what if i feel like giving up when i'm doing really good? what if it's like, during a period of time when i'm doing really good, i just feel like "fuck it." and i give up. i do that a lot. i just give up. i know it gets to a point where i can't do it.
why am i bitching in my journal?