love can be a liar (and justice can be a thief)
i was writing in my real journal, and reading back on past passages about my relationship with justin. i couldnt help but laugh at myself. i feel so silly. each time we broke up, it seemed he always stated "i don't know, im just so confused" and i didn't realize all of this until last night reading it one right after another. that is his favorite line for me. "im just so confused right now, i dont know what i want" i feel a little ridiculous that i fell for it so many times, but this time i know better. this time it will be different. this time im actually getting over it.
i know a lot of my friends are worried for me, being that i have made this statement two other times in the last year, but deep down, i know that it is over. i know that nothing he can do will ever get me to go back to him. nothing.
its so reassuring to finally say these things and mean it 100%. its like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and i can finally move on. i don't have to stay in the past and have my present keep hurting me.
im so proud of myself. that guy will never break my heart again. guaranteed.
i know a lot of my friends are worried for me, being that i have made this statement two other times in the last year, but deep down, i know that it is over. i know that nothing he can do will ever get me to go back to him. nothing.
its so reassuring to finally say these things and mean it 100%. its like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and i can finally move on. i don't have to stay in the past and have my present keep hurting me.
im so proud of myself. that guy will never break my heart again. guaranteed.