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Life is this endless cycle of girls, trying to occupy themselves with school, work, fam, and friends, but then there are those milliseconds where you have before you fall asleep or when you are in the shower, when you start thinking of what a pathetic person you are. you start equating your personality against your looks, and decide that if guys dont like you for the way you look then you must have this awesome personality. Then this guy comes along and says you are a control freak, grumpy, or a bitch and you're like damn i dont have that going for me either. Then your friends console you and tell you the typical, you're aren't ugly or a control freak. You just agree, even though inside you're like yeah thats cause you dont have that problem. Then your friends tell you that you'll meet that perfect guy sometime, and you're like thats no excuse for not meeting a nice guy now. You go back into your routine, you surround yourself with guys, who in no possible way would ever think you are attractive, even though you think the world of them in the reverse situation. You here about your friends going to this amazing experiences to different places and meeting new people, and you are only thinking about the room and three bathrooms that need to be cleaned when you get home. You start thinking about the parameter that you live in and realize that in the past 4 weeks you havent been outside a 15 mile radius from your house. You start thinking about all the weed and cigarettes you've smoked and how your health is slowly fading. Then you also realize that in many situations your friends view you as the motherly figure that they need to go to for advice, but you are never viewed as the girl who needs advice on guy situation, because there is no guy in your situation. and the cycle continues.