the conversation
ok so today and in my life lately i have become to realize many things and good things. life is hard and sucks sometimes but in those times when you feel alone is when you end up finding someone that understands or can just listen. i love you annmarie.
today i woke up not wanting to go to church cause i know it would make things all better and the way i was feeling would turn out better. so finally my mom said "holly sometimes we have to do things we dont want to and in those moments God will meet us" i think those might have been the most meaningful words i have ever heard from someone. so i got off my lazy butt and went to church and was so completely blessed. (thanks you lord for meeting me) God slapped me in the face. i needed it. and you know what i am not alone and so many times i feel like no one cares and no one is there, even the people who say they care the most about me. so it was nice learning and finding out that i am not. no matter what others may say or if there not there for me i am not alone. and i am growing and i dont know how to do things and that is ok because God is using me and molding me into someone amazing and i really truely believe that now. God is amazing in how he works himself into your life kinda weither you want it or not. and that is what i needed today. i started the day not wanting to but ended the day (well it isnt really over) wanting and looking forward to the person God has for me tomorrow and you know what... that is all i can do right now and i feel that that is ok. i know God is there and has plans for me and i trust him. and if anyone reads this then i hope that maybe someone got touched by it. i love you all.
hey everyone vangaurd is on their missions trip if you get a chance keep them in your prayers. and my brother he is out there with them.
peace guys
one more thing :
this is your life are you who you want to be
today i woke up not wanting to go to church cause i know it would make things all better and the way i was feeling would turn out better. so finally my mom said "holly sometimes we have to do things we dont want to and in those moments God will meet us" i think those might have been the most meaningful words i have ever heard from someone. so i got off my lazy butt and went to church and was so completely blessed. (thanks you lord for meeting me) God slapped me in the face. i needed it. and you know what i am not alone and so many times i feel like no one cares and no one is there, even the people who say they care the most about me. so it was nice learning and finding out that i am not. no matter what others may say or if there not there for me i am not alone. and i am growing and i dont know how to do things and that is ok because God is using me and molding me into someone amazing and i really truely believe that now. God is amazing in how he works himself into your life kinda weither you want it or not. and that is what i needed today. i started the day not wanting to but ended the day (well it isnt really over) wanting and looking forward to the person God has for me tomorrow and you know what... that is all i can do right now and i feel that that is ok. i know God is there and has plans for me and i trust him. and if anyone reads this then i hope that maybe someone got touched by it. i love you all.
hey everyone vangaurd is on their missions trip if you get a chance keep them in your prayers. and my brother he is out there with them.
peace guys
one more thing :
this is your life are you who you want to be