Fresh start chapter 36
Series: Fresh start
Chapter: 36
Written by: Parishs
Rating: pg-13
Summary: Reid is a neuro surgeon in Dallas with a burn out who tries to figure out what life is really about (Reid's POV).
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta!!!
previous chapter
"I don't know what to think about what you just said", I whispered.
Luke looked me in the eye and smiled. "Nothing has changed Reid", he said softly. "I am still Luke and I love you to death. I want the best for you, in everything. I have been in a relationship and after that I have been with other men, guys who showed me that sex can be fun.
With Noah, it was hard work but with the guys we tried everything. I know you have never been in a relationship, not did you have much sex so I can't limit you to me, if you want to try things I want you to feel free to explore, that's all. If you want to have a threesome or whatever...I don't know what you deep dark fantasies are baby.
If my brain tumor had been malign then I would be dead already, don't you understand that I live in extra time and I want to spend it as good as I can? I don't want to fight anymore, neither do you? We are living a balanced life, and that's exactly what I need. You and the pig and the kittens you gave me and me. There's nothing that I need more".
I didn't know why his words made me so emotional but they did. "But if you allow me to have sex with others, does that mean that you need that space too?", I asked.
He grabbed my head in his hands and kissed me hard before he looked at me again. "No I don't Reid, not at the moment, but I want to you discover you own sexual identity, find out what you like and ...yeah especially that, experiment if you want, with me or with someone else. I know you are jealous but I am not, I have been through so much shit that I know what’s important".
"I always thought that toys were necessary to get it going when you were a little bored with your partner", I said.
Luke caressed my chest and his hand went lower until he fisted my cock through my jeans. "Tell me a fantasy you had this week Reid", he whispered. "I think we are having the best someone can have but you must think of things you have read or seen on your computer. What turns you on baby, whisper it in my ear".
The naughty look in his eyes always heated me up so much that I didn't need much more than his hand opening my zipper. With his teeth he bit my nipples through my t-shirt while he let his thump circle around the sensitive head of my cock.
What more did I need than this, a man who was so into me? Could I get rid of my inhibitions and tell him what I wanted more? Could I allow myself to think outside the box and get into the kinky spots of my brain?
Suddenly I realized how generous his words had been, he didn't ask permission to cheat but he wanted me to live my life to the max. Cheating was a word that wouldn't be found in his dictionary possibly. While he undressed me words escaped my mouth: "I want to tie you to the bed", I whispered.
Although he got me pretty worked up already the idea of seeing him naked on his bed, helpless...
Maybe I didn't have enough imagination or fantasy or maybe I was too rational but all kinds of questions invaded my mind when I thought about it. How long would he be able to do it until his arms would start to feel heavy and senseless? Would I tie him with the ropes or cuffs, or were the chains better? Would he be comfortable with what I wanted to do? So many thoughts invaded my mind that I felt lost. I looked at my man who saw how much my confession confused me.
"Reid", his sexy voice grounded me again, "don't make such a big deal of it, if you are not ready to do this than please let it go, I am here at my office to get my laptop and files so I can hand the whole damn thing over to Mart.
You obviously have other associations with my office and I am grateful that you have, you came here every day to suck me out of my working routine and with that you made my life bearable, you made me live again. For you it's a place where we could be together and that's good.
I have confused you today with my ideas about your sex life. Just do what you need Reid, don't make it a problem because it's not, every time I see you I want you, and to me it's not about the how but about the fact that we are together. Making love with you is special, every time".
"You have the sexiest body", Luke said while he drew lines on my sweaty torso. "I am looking forward to the weekend, then we don't have to get up or get dressed, we can stay in bed for as long as we want. But now I have to get up Reid, I promised to send my clients accounts to Mart so he could file them. I am so happy that in a few weeks this office is going to be empty and then I can start running my foundation from here.
I know you also offered one of your empty bedrooms but if I am going to meet clients I want to do that here. Our home is our place; I don't want to mix work and pleasure anymore. I need to learn to plan my work and when it's done I have to close the door and leave. That won't be so hard knowing that you are waiting for me".
"You think that I have nothing better to do than wait till you are done?" , I teased.
"Maybe, it would be sexy to think of you as my private boy, that you would come to my office when I was horny, or that you would lay naked in bed when I came home. God thinking about that I get hard again, you turn me on so much".
"Is that a fantasy of yours? That you can own me? That I am at your service? Don't you know that...".
"Shh", he said. "Yes I know you are a world class neuro surgeon but I like to think that you are my bitch and that you are thinking of me all day lying on your big bed, stroking yourself thinking about me. And when I come home you pour champagne in our new crystal glasses and you toast with me, making me hard with that spark of yours. You undress me quickly whispering in my ear that you need me so much it hurts. And you....hhmm.....you........fuck yeah..........
Chapter: 36
Written by: Parishs
Rating: pg-13
Summary: Reid is a neuro surgeon in Dallas with a burn out who tries to figure out what life is really about (Reid's POV).
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta!!!
previous chapter
"I don't know what to think about what you just said", I whispered.
Luke looked me in the eye and smiled. "Nothing has changed Reid", he said softly. "I am still Luke and I love you to death. I want the best for you, in everything. I have been in a relationship and after that I have been with other men, guys who showed me that sex can be fun.
With Noah, it was hard work but with the guys we tried everything. I know you have never been in a relationship, not did you have much sex so I can't limit you to me, if you want to try things I want you to feel free to explore, that's all. If you want to have a threesome or whatever...I don't know what you deep dark fantasies are baby.
If my brain tumor had been malign then I would be dead already, don't you understand that I live in extra time and I want to spend it as good as I can? I don't want to fight anymore, neither do you? We are living a balanced life, and that's exactly what I need. You and the pig and the kittens you gave me and me. There's nothing that I need more".
I didn't know why his words made me so emotional but they did. "But if you allow me to have sex with others, does that mean that you need that space too?", I asked.
He grabbed my head in his hands and kissed me hard before he looked at me again. "No I don't Reid, not at the moment, but I want to you discover you own sexual identity, find out what you like and ...yeah especially that, experiment if you want, with me or with someone else. I know you are jealous but I am not, I have been through so much shit that I know what’s important".
"I always thought that toys were necessary to get it going when you were a little bored with your partner", I said.
Luke caressed my chest and his hand went lower until he fisted my cock through my jeans. "Tell me a fantasy you had this week Reid", he whispered. "I think we are having the best someone can have but you must think of things you have read or seen on your computer. What turns you on baby, whisper it in my ear".
The naughty look in his eyes always heated me up so much that I didn't need much more than his hand opening my zipper. With his teeth he bit my nipples through my t-shirt while he let his thump circle around the sensitive head of my cock.
What more did I need than this, a man who was so into me? Could I get rid of my inhibitions and tell him what I wanted more? Could I allow myself to think outside the box and get into the kinky spots of my brain?
Suddenly I realized how generous his words had been, he didn't ask permission to cheat but he wanted me to live my life to the max. Cheating was a word that wouldn't be found in his dictionary possibly. While he undressed me words escaped my mouth: "I want to tie you to the bed", I whispered.
Although he got me pretty worked up already the idea of seeing him naked on his bed, helpless...
Maybe I didn't have enough imagination or fantasy or maybe I was too rational but all kinds of questions invaded my mind when I thought about it. How long would he be able to do it until his arms would start to feel heavy and senseless? Would I tie him with the ropes or cuffs, or were the chains better? Would he be comfortable with what I wanted to do? So many thoughts invaded my mind that I felt lost. I looked at my man who saw how much my confession confused me.
"Reid", his sexy voice grounded me again, "don't make such a big deal of it, if you are not ready to do this than please let it go, I am here at my office to get my laptop and files so I can hand the whole damn thing over to Mart.
You obviously have other associations with my office and I am grateful that you have, you came here every day to suck me out of my working routine and with that you made my life bearable, you made me live again. For you it's a place where we could be together and that's good.
I have confused you today with my ideas about your sex life. Just do what you need Reid, don't make it a problem because it's not, every time I see you I want you, and to me it's not about the how but about the fact that we are together. Making love with you is special, every time".
"You have the sexiest body", Luke said while he drew lines on my sweaty torso. "I am looking forward to the weekend, then we don't have to get up or get dressed, we can stay in bed for as long as we want. But now I have to get up Reid, I promised to send my clients accounts to Mart so he could file them. I am so happy that in a few weeks this office is going to be empty and then I can start running my foundation from here.
I know you also offered one of your empty bedrooms but if I am going to meet clients I want to do that here. Our home is our place; I don't want to mix work and pleasure anymore. I need to learn to plan my work and when it's done I have to close the door and leave. That won't be so hard knowing that you are waiting for me".
"You think that I have nothing better to do than wait till you are done?" , I teased.
"Maybe, it would be sexy to think of you as my private boy, that you would come to my office when I was horny, or that you would lay naked in bed when I came home. God thinking about that I get hard again, you turn me on so much".
"Is that a fantasy of yours? That you can own me? That I am at your service? Don't you know that...".
"Shh", he said. "Yes I know you are a world class neuro surgeon but I like to think that you are my bitch and that you are thinking of me all day lying on your big bed, stroking yourself thinking about me. And when I come home you pour champagne in our new crystal glasses and you toast with me, making me hard with that spark of yours. You undress me quickly whispering in my ear that you need me so much it hurts. And you....hhmm.....you........fuck yeah..........