A perfect life
Title: A perfect life
Series: Love hurts
Written by: Parishs
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Reid challenges Luke (Luke's POV).
Prompt: Fun Fic Friday prompt of A perfect life (08-015-2014)
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Warning: English is not my native language, unbeta-ed.
Previous chapter
When I heard his stomach protest, we laughed.
“We have to eat something Reid, we have to get out of bed and stretch our legs, what is there to do in this town?”.
“I don’t know, what do you have in mind?”.
“What was your favorite restaurant?”.
“I always ate at the hospital and we ordered take out, I don’t know any restaurant here”.
“But you lived here for years, you must know the place to be here”.
“Sorry, I don’t. What do you wanna eat, we can order room service”.
“I’d like to go outside for a while, I am not used to spend so much time inside, I grew up on a farm you know”.
Reid pulled me closer to his body and kissed my neck. “Sexy farm boy”, he breathed in my ear.
I smirked. “Yes that’s me Reid, but I am starving, we have to shower and dress and I want to inhale some fresh air”.
Reid held me in his bear-hug and caressed my arm. “I mean it Luke, I think you are very sexy. I never say things that I don’t mean, and I hardly give compliments, so enjoy it while you can”.
I felt my cheeks redden. “Thanks”, I whispered and kissed his hand. I wanted to tell him how sexy he was but I didn’t want to say it back in a kind of echo, so I kept my mouth shut. Reid wasn’t the man who fished for compliments like….
Well fuck, I had to stop thinking about him, and comparing him with Reid. They didn’t have anything in common and I had to let Noah go. He wasn’t my reference framework anymore, he didn’t even think about me anymore. I had to stop thinking about him. But it was an automatism.
Reid sensed it, that I froze, and he caressed my hair slowly. “We are both stubborn Luke”, he said softly. “We refuse to let the past go, somehow we hang on to it but I have no idea why I do that. It’s so useless.
“Yes it is Reid”, I sighed. “I want you to know how much being here with you means to me. I am so glad that Reg blackmailed me to come here. He knows better what I need than I do”.
“So what does being with me mean to you?”, Reid asked.
I freed myself from his hug and turned around, I wanted to face him when I told him what he meant to me.
“I was scared to come here Reid, because to me it was an all or nothing trip. Maybe I did misinterpret our connection and you would be surprised to see me here. How would I have explained it? But it has been so wonderful, to talk to your ex, to see who you are trying to forget, or who has hurt you so much that, you know…”.
“No I don’t Luke”, he said while he caressed my face with his fingers. “You have this habit of not saying what you think. Tell me what being here means to you”.
I felt cornered and he must have read it in my eyes. I couldn’t put a name to it yet, to my feelings, and I hated myself for it. Was it my fear of starting something again?
Reid’s blue eyes held mine and encouraged me to keep breathing, to feel what was going on inside of me, to think for myself no matter what the consequences were. I could do that at work, but in relationships I was more careful.
“How do I make you feel Luke?”, Reid pushed softly. “Just say what boils up when you look at me”.
I kept looking into his beautiful eyes, the ones who had a sparkle when he looked at me, eyes that trusted me and slowly opened up to me. I could read his love for me in it, and it encouraged me to close my eyes and concentrate on my senses.
“I feel challenged by you”, I said softly. “You make that I have to leave my comfort zone, but in a good way. I know that you have my back and that you won’t hurt me, not intentionally at least, and that’s something that I have to learn to appreciate. I am always scared to get stabbed in the back. But you ……………you want what’s best for me and that’s so huge”.
“Challenged”, he whispered. When he didn’t continue I opened my eyes. He shook his head slowly. “I have seen how you look at me Luke, and how you touch me, the fire in you when we are together. And I trust my gut feeling for once in my life that tells me that you like being with me.
I can only tell what I feel. I love being with you, it makes me feel alive. I think you are gorgeous and I can’t seem to get enough of you. I can’t promise you a perfect life, but yeah, to me this day was rather perfect”.
My heart started to race when I heard words no one ever said to me before. How on earth was I screwing this up so badly? He only asked me to tell him what I felt and I kept my distance, I pushed away all the overwhelming feelings he evoked in me.
“Sorry Reid”, I said softly and closed my eyes, but he didn’t let me, he tilted my head and kissed my lips.
“Try again Luke”, he said.
“You make me so horny Reid”, I said before I could swallow my words. “Just feelings, right? Horny and warm inside, and that’s huge, because it has been a while, that someone could evoke a physical reaction in me.
I was so dead inside. I feel a click with you, a strong connection, but that scares me to death Reid. I thought I loved someone before, but he wasn’t screwing my system the way you are. You make that I can’t concentrate, that I think about you all day. In a good way.
But my biggest fear is that you will walk away and leave me on fire, because…if ending my previous relationship threw me in a deep depression, how can I survive when you are gone?”.
Reid’s eyes smiled. “Hey”, he said softly and kissed me. “I am going nowhere, but maybe you need to look at this from a distance, we have a click and that’s wonderful, and we are going to explore this without strings. You have your life and I have mine, and when we have time we can call. Don’t make it so heavy, I want to enjoy our time together without making long-term arrangements. Do you need a forever from me at this point?”.
I shook my head in embarrassment. What was I thinking? Why did I want to tie him down? Where did this ridiculous need to commit come from? He was right, I wanted to enjoy him now, we were going to make memories I would be looking back at my whole life. Live in the here and now, I had heard it so many times, but Reid showed me how to do that.
When I pushed him on his back and rolled on top of him, my phone beeped. And a few seconds later Reid’s. We smiled at each other and kept on moving our bodies against each other.
“The outside world has to wait a little longer”, Reid said in a husky voice.
I nodded. Yes, they had to wait. In the here and now, we had an emergency.
Next chapter
Series: Love hurts
Written by: Parishs
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Reid challenges Luke (Luke's POV).
Prompt: Fun Fic Friday prompt of A perfect life (08-015-2014)
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Warning: English is not my native language, unbeta-ed.
Previous chapter
When I heard his stomach protest, we laughed.
“We have to eat something Reid, we have to get out of bed and stretch our legs, what is there to do in this town?”.
“I don’t know, what do you have in mind?”.
“What was your favorite restaurant?”.
“I always ate at the hospital and we ordered take out, I don’t know any restaurant here”.
“But you lived here for years, you must know the place to be here”.
“Sorry, I don’t. What do you wanna eat, we can order room service”.
“I’d like to go outside for a while, I am not used to spend so much time inside, I grew up on a farm you know”.
Reid pulled me closer to his body and kissed my neck. “Sexy farm boy”, he breathed in my ear.
I smirked. “Yes that’s me Reid, but I am starving, we have to shower and dress and I want to inhale some fresh air”.
Reid held me in his bear-hug and caressed my arm. “I mean it Luke, I think you are very sexy. I never say things that I don’t mean, and I hardly give compliments, so enjoy it while you can”.
I felt my cheeks redden. “Thanks”, I whispered and kissed his hand. I wanted to tell him how sexy he was but I didn’t want to say it back in a kind of echo, so I kept my mouth shut. Reid wasn’t the man who fished for compliments like….
Well fuck, I had to stop thinking about him, and comparing him with Reid. They didn’t have anything in common and I had to let Noah go. He wasn’t my reference framework anymore, he didn’t even think about me anymore. I had to stop thinking about him. But it was an automatism.
Reid sensed it, that I froze, and he caressed my hair slowly. “We are both stubborn Luke”, he said softly. “We refuse to let the past go, somehow we hang on to it but I have no idea why I do that. It’s so useless.
“Yes it is Reid”, I sighed. “I want you to know how much being here with you means to me. I am so glad that Reg blackmailed me to come here. He knows better what I need than I do”.
“So what does being with me mean to you?”, Reid asked.
I freed myself from his hug and turned around, I wanted to face him when I told him what he meant to me.
“I was scared to come here Reid, because to me it was an all or nothing trip. Maybe I did misinterpret our connection and you would be surprised to see me here. How would I have explained it? But it has been so wonderful, to talk to your ex, to see who you are trying to forget, or who has hurt you so much that, you know…”.
“No I don’t Luke”, he said while he caressed my face with his fingers. “You have this habit of not saying what you think. Tell me what being here means to you”.
I felt cornered and he must have read it in my eyes. I couldn’t put a name to it yet, to my feelings, and I hated myself for it. Was it my fear of starting something again?
Reid’s blue eyes held mine and encouraged me to keep breathing, to feel what was going on inside of me, to think for myself no matter what the consequences were. I could do that at work, but in relationships I was more careful.
“How do I make you feel Luke?”, Reid pushed softly. “Just say what boils up when you look at me”.
I kept looking into his beautiful eyes, the ones who had a sparkle when he looked at me, eyes that trusted me and slowly opened up to me. I could read his love for me in it, and it encouraged me to close my eyes and concentrate on my senses.
“I feel challenged by you”, I said softly. “You make that I have to leave my comfort zone, but in a good way. I know that you have my back and that you won’t hurt me, not intentionally at least, and that’s something that I have to learn to appreciate. I am always scared to get stabbed in the back. But you ……………you want what’s best for me and that’s so huge”.
“Challenged”, he whispered. When he didn’t continue I opened my eyes. He shook his head slowly. “I have seen how you look at me Luke, and how you touch me, the fire in you when we are together. And I trust my gut feeling for once in my life that tells me that you like being with me.
I can only tell what I feel. I love being with you, it makes me feel alive. I think you are gorgeous and I can’t seem to get enough of you. I can’t promise you a perfect life, but yeah, to me this day was rather perfect”.
My heart started to race when I heard words no one ever said to me before. How on earth was I screwing this up so badly? He only asked me to tell him what I felt and I kept my distance, I pushed away all the overwhelming feelings he evoked in me.
“Sorry Reid”, I said softly and closed my eyes, but he didn’t let me, he tilted my head and kissed my lips.
“Try again Luke”, he said.
“You make me so horny Reid”, I said before I could swallow my words. “Just feelings, right? Horny and warm inside, and that’s huge, because it has been a while, that someone could evoke a physical reaction in me.
I was so dead inside. I feel a click with you, a strong connection, but that scares me to death Reid. I thought I loved someone before, but he wasn’t screwing my system the way you are. You make that I can’t concentrate, that I think about you all day. In a good way.
But my biggest fear is that you will walk away and leave me on fire, because…if ending my previous relationship threw me in a deep depression, how can I survive when you are gone?”.
Reid’s eyes smiled. “Hey”, he said softly and kissed me. “I am going nowhere, but maybe you need to look at this from a distance, we have a click and that’s wonderful, and we are going to explore this without strings. You have your life and I have mine, and when we have time we can call. Don’t make it so heavy, I want to enjoy our time together without making long-term arrangements. Do you need a forever from me at this point?”.
I shook my head in embarrassment. What was I thinking? Why did I want to tie him down? Where did this ridiculous need to commit come from? He was right, I wanted to enjoy him now, we were going to make memories I would be looking back at my whole life. Live in the here and now, I had heard it so many times, but Reid showed me how to do that.
When I pushed him on his back and rolled on top of him, my phone beeped. And a few seconds later Reid’s. We smiled at each other and kept on moving our bodies against each other.
“The outside world has to wait a little longer”, Reid said in a husky voice.
I nodded. Yes, they had to wait. In the here and now, we had an emergency.
Next chapter