and they tell me that love makes the world go round.
my life is somewhat complete...
except for the fact that I hate my job (also the fact that it has become a job)
that i'm no somebody else with a perfect life
my car is a piece of junk (but still runs...barely)
i haven't seen my best friends in over 3 months (one is gone and the other is about to leave...)
but then again that is my fault because I'm always too busy, or I'm working or something always seems to come up and I hate it because those two are my life and i miss them terribly but it seems when ever there was an opportune moment to hang out...something went wrong
i miss them and i miss my old life
i miss high school and not having to worry about homework and keeping a class...
i miss not working and being able to just hang out whenever
i miss being a kid
i hate having to get up at 6:45 every morning to take some stupid pill (but in turn this stupid pill will help me from making a stupid mistake...)
i don't want to be a grown up but i don't want to live at home
you know there are a lot of "i"'s in this...I hate and I want and I need...how irritating
somedays I wonder how people put up with
you know those days where you just have a blow to yourself esteem...?
well that has been my week,
since school has started I haven't really known anyone, made any new friends or anything like that
but it hit me yesterday that i wasn't the girl of everybody's dreams.
that when i walk into a room, no one says hey, man she's cute or anything close to that.
i met this kid in one of my classes yesterday, nothing spectacular but it was nice to have someone to talk to for once instead of going all day feeling awkward and silent
him and i were having a decent conversation when this girl walked into class who in my opinion was kind of skanky but whatever (you know that seems to be my outlook lately...just whatever) and he totally ended the conversation and started talking to the guy in front of me and then to her..
i'm not looking for any kind of anything here, i mean i have a boyfriend whom i absolutely adore with all my heart so i'm not interested in anyone else...believe me but it's just the fact of the matter
i mean guys are lame and frustrating but you know a girl just wants to know that maybe in someone's eyes she's pretty...
whatever♥
except for the fact that I hate my job (also the fact that it has become a job)
that i'm no somebody else with a perfect life
my car is a piece of junk (but still runs...barely)
i haven't seen my best friends in over 3 months (one is gone and the other is about to leave...)
but then again that is my fault because I'm always too busy, or I'm working or something always seems to come up and I hate it because those two are my life and i miss them terribly but it seems when ever there was an opportune moment to hang out...something went wrong
i miss them and i miss my old life
i miss high school and not having to worry about homework and keeping a class...
i miss not working and being able to just hang out whenever
i miss being a kid
i hate having to get up at 6:45 every morning to take some stupid pill (but in turn this stupid pill will help me from making a stupid mistake...)
i don't want to be a grown up but i don't want to live at home
you know there are a lot of "i"'s in this...I hate and I want and I need...how irritating
somedays I wonder how people put up with
you know those days where you just have a blow to yourself esteem...?
well that has been my week,
since school has started I haven't really known anyone, made any new friends or anything like that
but it hit me yesterday that i wasn't the girl of everybody's dreams.
that when i walk into a room, no one says hey, man she's cute or anything close to that.
i met this kid in one of my classes yesterday, nothing spectacular but it was nice to have someone to talk to for once instead of going all day feeling awkward and silent
him and i were having a decent conversation when this girl walked into class who in my opinion was kind of skanky but whatever (you know that seems to be my outlook lately...just whatever) and he totally ended the conversation and started talking to the guy in front of me and then to her..
i'm not looking for any kind of anything here, i mean i have a boyfriend whom i absolutely adore with all my heart so i'm not interested in anyone else...believe me but it's just the fact of the matter
i mean guys are lame and frustrating but you know a girl just wants to know that maybe in someone's eyes she's pretty...
whatever♥