that dont bother me

[parishedlooove]

i miss boy very much. he came over last night to pick up his pack of cigarettes that he had left. he left at four in the morning to go sleep at chase's house on the couch that a boy died on. im such a little girl. like a spoiled little girl who needs lots of love and if she doesnt get it she pouts and runs away. and he puts up with that. oh wonderous amazing boy. he told me all about scales and major chords and frequency and stuff that went in one ear and out the other.i wish he was the type of guy that wanted to get married and have babies but he's not and that makes me a tad bit sad. i guess it shouldnt because we are only 21 years well i am almost 21.. in five months i will be legally able to drink in bars. which means nothing because i already do it'll just be nice i guess. i dont think i look twenty one at all.i look like susie from calvin and hobbes. i didnt get to sleep this morning until five am which also means i slept until 3:30 pm. oh horrible sleep patterns. thanksgiving is almost here and i cant wait to go to dev's families house to eat. his mom makes the best desert ever. tony's birthday is sunday. its weird that he is 30. its weird that ive hung out with "the older crowd" since i was 13. i grew up too fast. i sat in my room last night and listened to dinosaur jr and painted. its getting really cold outside. i need books to read!oh i had a wonderful dream last night. it was my birthday party and everyone got me great gifts and were extra nice to me and even dick's ex girlfriend came and we said we were sorry and it was all very nice. she gave me banana pudding.

puppy head is doing nice. i've been calling her puppy head now and i am a little girl with a little puppy.