This is my appology...do with it what you will
Maybe i need to just join an all-girls school. Then i would at least stay out of trouble...
It seems that every f*ing decision i have been making, no matter how small, has had some kind of negative effect on someone. And if that someone was me, then i really wouldn't have a problem. But the truth is, i am seem to be hurting the people that mean the most to me. And i have no idea how to get what i want without hurting so many people in the process.
I tend to have something and then throw it away as soon as something better comes along... but what if that something better turns out to be painful and destructive? Can i go back to how things were before?
I wish that i didn't have to depend on other people so much. I feel like i am being spread so thin and if one more person tries to take a piece of me, there will be nothing left.
I have so many people in my life that are important to me. And i love that. I love being able to count on a lot of people because then i feel like i am hardly ever disappointed. But is that real? My emotions seem so dull. Like i know that they are there, but i don't care about them. I don't let them get to me... i guess that is good and bad.
Ok, i am rambling again... i know that some of the people reading this may have been hurt by me in the past, or may even be hurt by me in the future. So i would like to just say; i'm sorry.
Life has been too kind to me...
It seems that every f*ing decision i have been making, no matter how small, has had some kind of negative effect on someone. And if that someone was me, then i really wouldn't have a problem. But the truth is, i am seem to be hurting the people that mean the most to me. And i have no idea how to get what i want without hurting so many people in the process.
I tend to have something and then throw it away as soon as something better comes along... but what if that something better turns out to be painful and destructive? Can i go back to how things were before?
I wish that i didn't have to depend on other people so much. I feel like i am being spread so thin and if one more person tries to take a piece of me, there will be nothing left.
I have so many people in my life that are important to me. And i love that. I love being able to count on a lot of people because then i feel like i am hardly ever disappointed. But is that real? My emotions seem so dull. Like i know that they are there, but i don't care about them. I don't let them get to me... i guess that is good and bad.
Ok, i am rambling again... i know that some of the people reading this may have been hurt by me in the past, or may even be hurt by me in the future. So i would like to just say; i'm sorry.
Life has been too kind to me...