Pensive!
I feel good today. Great infact. But, I discovered something today that I feel I should share with all of you.
I think I am afraid to show my affection towards people. In particular this one person that I want to show so much affection, but I'm afraid of showing that I care for people. Not my friends of course I guess because I feel like I don't have anything to loose by giving myself to a friend. However, when it comes to giving alot of myself to a certian person in a different sort of way I shy back. I guess I might be afraid to get hurt. It could happen. For some reason I think it's a vonurability thing. When you open yourself up to someone you risk alot because it's like showing them all your cards in a game of poker, and maybe I'm just not ready for that yet.
Anywho you know who you are but you probably won't read this, and I think I'd like to keep it that way. Anywho if you do stumble across this though I think you have a cute but. hahah ;-)
I think I am afraid to show my affection towards people. In particular this one person that I want to show so much affection, but I'm afraid of showing that I care for people. Not my friends of course I guess because I feel like I don't have anything to loose by giving myself to a friend. However, when it comes to giving alot of myself to a certian person in a different sort of way I shy back. I guess I might be afraid to get hurt. It could happen. For some reason I think it's a vonurability thing. When you open yourself up to someone you risk alot because it's like showing them all your cards in a game of poker, and maybe I'm just not ready for that yet.
Anywho you know who you are but you probably won't read this, and I think I'd like to keep it that way. Anywho if you do stumble across this though I think you have a cute but. hahah ;-)