hilary duff is cute.

[paris_riot]

man im turning into a sad person again..maybe im working too much. christmas is gonna suck again this year.. last year it was my moms and me & we ended up eating at a chinese resturant & having fortune cookies as my xmas presents..i got off work tonight & my mom left a msg saying how she wants to take me out to eat & see a chick flick.. it was really cute, shes never offered to do something like that before.. she even offered to buy me a few things for xmas, but to be honest i cant think of a single materialistic thing i want.. the things i want arent able to just be handed to me. i want relationships. i want a new best friend, thats close to where i live and we'll go shopping together and talk about boys & go clubbing together. id be so happy. i want a non-fucked up boy who'll be in a non-fucked up relationship with me and love me 100%, even when i dont shower for 4 days or barf all over the floor. he'd kiss me everywhere and hold my hair back. i cant even see myself getting married at this point; i honestly cant see a boy liking me enough to marry me, let alone be with me without ties for a long pd. of time. i thought things would work out with my ex, but i tend to fuck things up once they get all intense-like. whatevs.
people that shop at the mall at 11pm can get fucked.
tonight sucks, and tommorows not gonna be any better.
let alone the rest of the week.