Limits
I finally got my computer back Tuesday. For those that don't know, my computer died last Friday, but luckily it was only the power supply, and for some reason my power supply and mouse died. It kinda sucked for a couple of reasons
1) No porn. 2) Had to do my final paper at the SLC.
Hmmm...I was recently invited on a date. A real date.
But I feel...fear.
I have lived through so much shit with my alcoholic, emotionally abusive parents, having to go live with relatives, and my mom's suicide. I think that sometimes I am emotionally dead, and I'm afraid that if I start dating that my fears will come true.
That I'm really emotionally damaged and cannot match my partner's emotions.
So it's not exactly first-date jitters or whatever, I think I've been on enough semi-dates and such to not feel those effects.
I need to study for STAT.
Bah, I need to do good on the ENGL3000 test to pass it in a proper manner.
1) No porn. 2) Had to do my final paper at the SLC.
Hmmm...I was recently invited on a date. A real date.
But I feel...fear.
I have lived through so much shit with my alcoholic, emotionally abusive parents, having to go live with relatives, and my mom's suicide. I think that sometimes I am emotionally dead, and I'm afraid that if I start dating that my fears will come true.
That I'm really emotionally damaged and cannot match my partner's emotions.
So it's not exactly first-date jitters or whatever, I think I've been on enough semi-dates and such to not feel those effects.
I need to study for STAT.
Bah, I need to do good on the ENGL3000 test to pass it in a proper manner.