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All this work about learning how to be in the moment and to just take an hour to not be so fixated on the past or what will be happening is tough work! It seems a touch easier when the deep issues are resolved or when things are good but I'm really starting to understand the saying "when it rains it pours".
I got to thinking about how one issue seems to dig up all of its relatives (being other issues that may be indirectly connected) can make something that was only a little disappointing into something much bigger and complicated pretty fast. I would maybe think that when people give advice around said issues that doesn't seem to resonate (oh Dr. Ellis how you've infiltrated my vocabulary) with me, that it could come from the other person not realizing this issue A is really issue A with B,C,D standing next to it and E, F and G behind it.
My thoughts seem reaaallllly scattered today, probably because I spent a good chunk of my time reading a book. I'm in the world of the vampire armand and Earth as I know it is no longer as enchanting.
Back to compounding issues, I may wonder if in all of this complicated mess I started to take the blame on myself in order to bring order to chaos in some roundabout way. If I think about it, the pieces all seem to come together slowly. I'm keeping the actualy situation out of this because I don't know how I feel about putting my 100% uncensored thoughts out on the internet anymore. Again back to the topic at hand! I can see how something may completely blindside me and in an effort to make sense of it I start taking on blame so I can attribute the less than desirable circumstance to something. Well since I can't seem to get my English together today I'll call it quits.
I got to thinking about how one issue seems to dig up all of its relatives (being other issues that may be indirectly connected) can make something that was only a little disappointing into something much bigger and complicated pretty fast. I would maybe think that when people give advice around said issues that doesn't seem to resonate (oh Dr. Ellis how you've infiltrated my vocabulary) with me, that it could come from the other person not realizing this issue A is really issue A with B,C,D standing next to it and E, F and G behind it.
My thoughts seem reaaallllly scattered today, probably because I spent a good chunk of my time reading a book. I'm in the world of the vampire armand and Earth as I know it is no longer as enchanting.
Back to compounding issues, I may wonder if in all of this complicated mess I started to take the blame on myself in order to bring order to chaos in some roundabout way. If I think about it, the pieces all seem to come together slowly. I'm keeping the actualy situation out of this because I don't know how I feel about putting my 100% uncensored thoughts out on the internet anymore. Again back to the topic at hand! I can see how something may completely blindside me and in an effort to make sense of it I start taking on blame so I can attribute the less than desirable circumstance to something. Well since I can't seem to get my English together today I'll call it quits.